Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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BlueMom6 03/26/2018

I am a new to this sight, and I am scared to open up, because it has always been looked down on in my family. I received the imformation from a councelor in Mesa Springs. I guess here it goes.... on the 17th I attempted suicide. I took aprox. 20-25 Clonazepam and about that many Hydrocodone. My husband and teen daughter were home and I said nothing to either of them. I washed and packed my suitcase to go to Mesa Springs to get some help with my depression. We had someone here to work on the wood on the outside of our house, so when I went to tell my husband I was packed and ready to go. He told me we would go later when the man was done working on the house. I went in watched tv had lunch, from DQ, that I do not remember going to get. I don't remember much of anything after taking the pills. I remember taking them and nothing the rest of the day that my husband tells me about. I woke up in the truck going to Mesa Springs the next day! I thought it was still Saturday!

After a few hours later, All I could think of is, "it didn't work"!! Why!!

As I sit here today, over a week later, I still am not opening the blinds, turning on the tv. If you are Christian your faith tells you that if you take your own life you will go to hell. I am finding that really hard. Unfair! I do not want to be here, but I do not want to hurt my family either. It is a double edge sword. I am having a real hard time tring to find reasons to want to live!!

joe1981 03/26/2018

oh my lord I feel your pain. everyday has been a struggle. but if you have faith, fall into that. pray and humble yourself as often as you can. it is hard to do, but the more I do the more clarity I gain. that's not to say I don't fall almost everyday though because I do. there are things you can try to do as well that I find therapeutic, making lists of random things and I journal constantly. I take a lot of walks and listen to relaxing music. your not alone, you never really are, it just feels like it. keep reaching out.

Seamus 03/26/2018

Hi Blue,

Joes right, keep reaching out.

One very therapeutic this g to do is, use the Journal here. Write your thoughts, emotions and days activities down. You can make each entry private or public.

This is a good site and many people here will support you.

Your NOT ALONE!!!!!

djchurn 03/26/2018

I took about 3 times the Kpin you did and lived to tell about it. It did teach me however that I will never do it again. This was due to the possibility that I would survive in an incapacitated state wishing I could end it and not be able to. Consciousness is a gift from whichever entity you want to believe that all life3 came from. It is worse than a sin to throw it all away with ending the stay here. You are valuable to your family and they would miss you Please let them know in the future when you have thoughts of ending it all and they will help. Live for the love they will show you. You need each other.

BlueMom6 03/26/2018

Thank you all! It is really nice to have a place I can go and just really vent. I am in a situation where that if I talk to anyone one I know it all gets back around to the people that stress me out the most.

robotnik 03/27/2018

There are millions of reasons to live. Family, friends, music, laughter, food, drink, art, movies - to name a few. But you can't see them if your glasses are very dark.

Onlythelonely 03/27/2018

BlueMom6, Sorry you're having such a hard time. I know you are finding it hard right now to think of reasons to live, but please believe me that there are reasons. The depression is talking and telling you lies.

Just a couple weeks ago a young man from our community took his life. Our pastor helped with the service. He said, "I wish he could have seen how many people were at his funeral." You may not think anyone cares but they do.

Please find someone to talk to or text 741741.

I have found so much help in my recovery from books. A few that have really helped me are Rethink How You Think by D. Stoop. This book taught me how much my thinking was causing my depression. Also, The Lies We Believe by C. Thirmin. Learning to tell myself truth has been very helpful to me also.

Praying you find healing, hope and peace and are able to experience the love of God embracing you.

emkingxx 03/27/2018

Sometimes no matter how wonderful our families are, they can't give us all the kinds of support we need. My mother is one of the most loving and important people to me on this planet, but when it comes to my borderline personality disorder, she could not give me the help I needed no matter how much I pushed. Being with support groups and having an amazing therapist have been so important to my getting better. I still love my mother and my boyfriend, but I needed these extra things in my life to really start healing.

Hugs and prayers.

RealHeart 03/27/2018

I am glad you are here and have so much support. Please continue to reach out to us. We are here to help support you. Maybe open those blinds today and just look outside and focus on one beautiful thing today. Hugs to you my Friend. Never Give UP!

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