Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Justanotherface
Justanotherface

I'm tired of crying out for help to no avail. I don't even know why I bother posting on this site. It's not like it will ever make a difference. Depression is who I am. I am, the emptiness that consumes my entire body and leaves me numb. I am, the constant flow of thoughts to end it all that suffocates and invades my brain, leaving me beaten down and discouraged, unwilling to go on. I am the nothingness that is life. And the nothingness is me. Yet, what words can I orchestrate to paint the illusion of my pain and hopelessness to another being? How do I make someone understand the depth of my anguish? .. The answer... I cannot. There are no words. So I suffer silently. Screaming internally for a way out, yearning for the kiss of deaths sweet embrace. I cannot make people realize that with every passing day I sense less and less of humanity within myself, that I am losing my grasp on reality. No one see a my slow decline into insanity, so I suffer alone.... on the outside I uphold a facade of happiness, and peace. Because no one cares, and even if some one wanted to care, they couldn't possibly. Every person's suffering is different and no one, will ever be able to understand mine.. Death...


"Death is the only thing that is certain in an uncertain world" and I now know with absolute certainty what has to come next. I will embark upon this uncertain journey... this, I am certain of.

billwfriend
billwfriend
SEEK HELP FROM THE PSYCHIATRIC COMMUNITY....HUGS
mysooners
mysooners
Please don't take your life. It is for God to take when He is ready. Doesn't sound like you have Him in your life right now. Please cry out to Him to heal your pain. I care about what happens to you so please message me and tell me who has hurt you so deeply.
God bless you!!!!
Justanotherface
Justanotherface
I've tried both. I've seen numerous psychiatrist and psychologist, you name it. I also use to lead a very Godly life. I've never found peace, nor will I.
brendalee
brendalee
You have to renew your mind with the washing of the word, you are either listening to God or the devil the devil wants you dead because you are God's creation and he hates God so keep praying and get around christian friends and you will over come this, i went thru something for over 6 years and the devil was trying to take my mind but God delivered me the devil is real and he wants you dead keep believing write me back God bless and keep you Brenda
jesshev
jesshev
I used to feel like depression was who I am too, but that's a lie that you have told yourself so many times you now believe it. We cannot control our mental illness but we can control our choices. You can chose to get help! I know it's hard to change. It's so easy to get stuck in your way of thinking and there's something about being depressed that feels sort of comfortable. It's what we understand as normal and change is very scary. But if you want to see a change in your life, you must first start doing something differently. Seek help and don't quit. Keep fighting for a better you everyday. -hugs ❤
JeanCarlin
JeanCarlin
I know that you think that you are alone but you are not!! I have been there when all I did was pray for death, I thought I would never be OK again but with help you get can back from that dark place, please don't give up on you and your life!! God bless, lots of hugs!!!
TeCHer
TeCHer
Since you say you have had a relationship with God, I'd like to suggest a book that helped me. It is called "Victory Over the Darkness". Will be praying for you.
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