It pours... As all my friends know I relapsed with alcohol and the fiance sent me home. When he did this, he took back my big Dodge truck that he had bought me.. Luckily, I still had a little wanna be Mazda truck, year 2000. It only has 67,000 miles and looked brand new... I say looked cause yesterday, I ass ended a 8 1/2 month pregnant mother with two kids in her car.

Im so use to driving an automatic and the Mazda is clutch. Its like I forgot how to drive it and she was stopped in front of me.. My foot could not find my clutch and I looked down to hit my breaks and hit her. It totalled out my truck. The cops came and made me do a sobriety test out in front of God and everyone. I was shaking so bad, I couldnt do it but I pressed on and they did the pencil check with my eyes and cleared me for not being on drugs or drunk... No one was hurt but my truck is totaled and I only have liability.. for fuck sakes..

Thank God I quit drinking or I would be sitting my ass in jail right now and lost my liscence plus all the fines etc.. Thank God... just wanted to share... Im still shaking and very tearful... I cant stop thinking about what a dumb ass I am..