((((((((((bearfriend))))))))) I'm sorry sweety, you just cannot catch a break. Thank God no one was injured, first and foremost. If your fiance knows you have stopped drinking, might he consider giving you back the truck, especially considering what has happened? That must have been so scary for you hon. You take some time to regroup, and feel better. Sending you love and hugs xxxxx

Thanks Cin.. No the ex is not feeling any love towards me at all. He wouldnt piss on me if I was on fire. My son that I work for has a truck he is going to let me borrow until I decide what I can do.. It totallly sucks.. I cant quit crying... but yea.. thank God no one was hurt... thank God...

dancingbear......I am sorry, it was an accident. Thank God, everyone is ok, this is what's important. So much love and hugs to you.

I know the feeling of shaking and crying from when I was in a car accident. No one was hurt, but my car was totaled. After I came out of shock, crying and shaking, I was very thankful that we were all ok.

Many hugs to you, my friend. Now, the rain will stop and you will catch the break that you deserve.

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Oh beastie, I am sorry about the accident. Happy no one was hurt and so glad you were sober. You are so blessed.

thank you my friends... Im still pretty shook up... Im sure I will be ok in a few days but for right now, I cant stop crying...

Oh ............................ I know, no amount of thank goodness you are ok, and they are ok, and the test was clean is gonna make you feel better about this. It's because what you are feeling is still valid (all the anxiety, fear, anger, numbness ........) that comes when this s*** happens. I so Feel your pain (not that I've been in the spot - just life stuff, and it's so hard).

It's Fresh. Try to imagine this time 2012. Know that a day is coming FAR away from the newness of this event. And people are right, it isn't as "bad" as it Could have been ....... my God .................. Try to step back sometimes, and don't obesess and stay in it all day. Relax. Breathe. Know it's gonna be ok.

You got insurance out there, right? Main thing now is to take care of You. You've got SO much going on right now. This is just a pile of shit heaped on top of it.

Keep this in mind too - it was an ACCIDENT ................. that is why they Call it that. NOT your Fault. Nobody sets out to slam into the back of a family! Another thing to stop you beating up on yourself - when the time change happens in the Spring we lose and hour. Do you know accidents increase by 17% after daylight savings change robs us of an hour? Put sleep deprivation along side of your recent life changes and stress, AND a different truck .......... well ........ you really ARE lucky to be here telling us about this story, instead of, well ...... I don't wanna think about it.

Please be as good to you as we are! Hugs!!!!!!!

Well beastie. Wallow in those tears as they are cleansing. I know beside the accident and the possibility of having someone get hurt you are mourning the loss of your transportation. It is so important to be able to get around on our own. If you think of it as the third thing in the things happen threes law. You are only headed up now girl. Cry a while and you will be able to move forward.

Thanks guys.... you have helped.... I am glad I posted and didnt hold it in as usual.... I only have liability on the truck so its a lost cause.... Oh well, your right... three is the charm..... everything is going to get lots better now... I know it will.. thanks again..

I am sorry to hear about your truck and your relationship. That really sucks that you can't catch a break. I'm glad your not hurt or anyone else. My ex was in a head on crash on the highway (drunk) and he hurt a lady and her 3 yr old. The baby lost a kidney. He is in prison for 5 years although he is up for prole in Nov. Sometime we have to count the blessings we can't see if you know what i mean. My boyfriend now is like yours. He would not piss on me if I was on fire either.

Sorry Celebris.. bless you....

First of all, I'm so glad everyone is okay

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Secondly, even though this situation sucks, I'm insanely proud of you. You're facing things head-on, without resorting to alcohol, which is tough to do for an alcoholic! It's always hard to look past today, but you're a tough cookie and you'll get through it :)

Wuv voo

Just wanted to add something...this post made me think of a Stephen King quote I read last night:

"The world eventually sends out a mean-ass Patrol Boy to slow your progress and show you who's boss. You reading this have undoubtedly met yours(or will); I met mine, and I'm sure he'll be back. He's got my address. He's a mean guy, a Bad Lieutenant, the sworn enemy of goofery, fuckery, pride, ambition, loud music, and all things nineteen.... You can still rock and roll all night, but when the music dies out and the beer wears off, you're able to think. And dream big dreams. The mean Patrol Boy cuts you down to size eventually, and if you start out small, why, there's almost nothing left but the cuffs of your pants when he's done with you. 'Got another one!' he shouts, and strides off with his citation book in his hand."

What I like about this is that it reminds me that none of us are so perfect that we never fall.

thank you freccles. that helps alot... you all have. You guys rock

I know how you feel. We had an accident a few weeks ago and the cops said it was our fault. Liability only sucks. We can't afford to fix it so we just have to drive around in a bent up truck...it is not that bad, but still sucks.

mine is not driveable.. they had to tow it away.. it totally sucks...but I will get over it adventually.. I hope sooner then later...