I guess I could try . I just need help so I guess it's worth a shot . All I want to do right now is end my life . It just won't stop :(

musicgirl1991, I am glad you have not done anything to harm yourself yet, that shows a fair amount of strength on your part. I know how intense those thoughts and feelings can be, I often feel like my mind is trying to kill me. Put your hand on your heart, and really focus on what you feel, the heart beating, that my friend is purpose! Meaning! You have purpose and meaning in this life, the mind will often try to trick us with negative, horrible thoughts, it is up to us to be strong and realize that, that is just what it is a trick. Feel your heart and trust your heart. Notice the negative thought and let it go, replace it with something positive. It takes practice, I am sure you can do it! You are a survivor! You are strong, stronger than you know. Please don't hurt yourself..

Thanks for the advice .. my head just seems so evil . All it wants is for me to drink chemicals . And if I could drive I would go straight to the train statgion right now. I know I keep fighting and I know I keep surviving . But how long can a person do this fight . It seems so sever :(

Hang in there, dear. You can do this. Have you told your mom yet ? You really should. Remember, the best way to fight evil is with good. Where are you now ? Can you get to a Church ?

Please take the advice that I gave you. Pray those words. Over and over until it is as natural to you as breathing. Just keep saying, "Mother Mary, help me I need you." Seriously, dear. Just keep on saying that. It's okay if you aren't Christian. You are loved anyway. I will be away from the computer after 4:00, but I'll be praying for you. You can do this. You can win this fight. Please, turn to God. Believe it or not, He is waiting for you. Get yourself to a Catholic Church as soon as you can. Also, if you don't feel like you can wait until Saturday when you see your therapist, talk to a Catholic priest. They'll help you for free. And remember, keep on praying! It helps.

Will do . I don't know if there is a chapel on my campus but I guess it's worth a shot . So sick of this shuit

Go for it dear. Good luck, and I'll be praying for you. You can do this! :)

It's a miricle I made it through class tonight without cutting :) now if only I would feel better . Maybe this was a step in the right direction though :/

You said the other day that they suggested you go to the hospital. When you say you are afraid you won’t be alive by Saturday, sounds to me that there’s something deep down inside of you that really doesn’t want to die. The hospital can help you take control of yourself again. They can help you feel better. I have found that talking to people that don’t know me and cannot judge me for my past helps get things off my chest. It’s one thing to talk to people like us in an online support group, but I feel that you are at the point where a trained professional is needed to stabilize your medication and get you therapy. Think about it. You may not be able to see it right now, but there are a lot of people who love you and would be devastated if you ended your life.

There was a boy I had known his entire life who killed himself in September. His family was devastated and still struggling with his death. My mother died from cancer six years ago, and I still struggle with it. We saw it coming, but it was still hard. It’s 100 times worse when someone does it to themselves. I had talked to my young friend not two days before he ended his life. I had hoped that he felt he had a safe place to go if he needed it, but he made a different choice. He was 19. He had his whole life ahead of him. Like you, he felt that he could not cope with the battles he was fighting in his life. But you still have a chance to change that. I wish you the best of luck.

Yeah I have ups and downs currently . I kind of wish I was allowed to go to hospital . But I guess if I keep making it through one day after another I don't really need it .... but I don't think it's ok that pretty much every day I try somthing that could potentially end my life and that I still have yet to go a day without cutting my arms in multiple places :( idk what to do

If you are over the age of 18, no one can prevent you from going to the hospital if that is what you want to do. Call 911 if you need to. Also, if you feel that you cannot talk to your mother about things, start a journal. It might help.

Yes I'm over 18 . But sadly my parents rule my life since they pay my bills and I could never afford hospital .. luckily I think tonight is one of my safer nights of recent . I still can't stop thinking about dieing and how I would do it . But I haven't done anything to try today other then cutting. So I guess it's a good day :/

I don't know where you live, but there are plenty of resources out there for people who need mental health help that will help pay for hospital visits and medication.

Hmm . Idk . I don't know if I even qualify for hospital . I have survived so many days in crisis :( I just can't seem to snap out of it though :(every day seems worse then the next