Okay - well you really need to adjust your focus. You said you're in school - what are you in school for? I mean what classes are you taking ? What's your major ? Wait a minute.....tell a counselor or teacher or someone there that you want to harm yourself. Tell them how you are feeling so that maybe someone there can help you. I'll be praying for you.

I'm going for my masters in special education . why I don't know because I think I'm a horrible teacher . Anyway yeah there is no one to took to about it at school :/ I wripped a little bit during class but I'm ok . Just super frustrated because I feel like I have no control of myself

That's a wonderful field to go into! Remember, you can do anything you put your mind to. If teaching is it, then great. If you don't think teaching is for you, then you can always change to something else. Music, for example. Anyway, the point is, whatever you do with your life, you have to focus on that. When you get an urge to rip yourself or do any type of harm to yourself, say these words: "Mother Mary, help me." It doesn't matter what your religion is or even if you have no religion at all. As often as you get the urge, repeat those words. I will pray for you as well. I will pray that every time you say those words, that she will truly come to your aid. Your part in this is to just say the words, "Mother Mary help me." every time you get tempted to harm yourself in any way. I'm serious about this. You've got to give it a try.

I guess it's worth a shot :( . I just wish this was over already .... when will I come out of this whole . I don't want to get out of bed in the morning . And all I want to do is sleep once I'm up . I really wish I could see dr before saturday but that is not an option :( I just hope I don't try the bleach thing again tonight . I already want to :(

Please don't. You said you already want to ? That is your chance to say that prayer - those simple words, "Mother Mary help me." Seriously, EVERY time you get the urge, even when just the thought pops into your head, SAY THOSE WORDS - EVERY time. If that means you have to say them constantly, because the thought is constantly with you, then okay, say them constantly. I have family members praying for you as well. You can do this, and prayer is POWERFUL!

I hope . I'm scared to go upstairs to bed . I know the bottle is right there in the bathroom . And I don't know how I'm not going to touch it when I go to wash up . I can keep saying the prayer it makes sense . But I feel like I have no control when I get the urge or see things that trigger the idea to do it . I really feel that I am screwed :(

Keep saying the prayer - over and over. As for seeing the bottle, ask your mom to move it - let her know what you're going through so she can do her part in this to help you by removing or hiding items that can temp you. But above all, KEEP SAYING THAT PRAYER!

Go to an emergency room and they can get you some help....it's ok to go get help when you gave a broken leg but you won't get help when your head is no right. So please go get some help. The emergency room will get you help right away

I guess I could say that . The issue is I want to do it so badly I don't think I have it in me to tell my mom I'm not safe . I'm really not ok . I wish this stuff would be over already :( I think I need help before Saturday . But I don't think I can get it :(

My mom is against the hospital . :( she thinks it's just a holding tank and that they just hold u hostage :( . So I guess I have to fight till Saturday . But I don't even think I'm going to get the help I need that day . I wish I lived alone I would go right now :( but maybe I'm not that bad :(

I'm praying for you. My family is praying for you. The rest is up to you - you can do this. Talk to your mom. You must at least do that much. You say you want help, if you really want help TALK TO HER about this. Keep praying, as well.
And even if you don't think praying will help, PRAY ANYWAY. Keep saying those words. You can get past this. I have to go now, but will be with you in spirit. I'll pray during the night for you. Remember those words - "Mother Mary help me. " You know that you need help, you want help. That's a good sign. You can move forward.

Well I made it through the night again :( I guess that's a good thing . But now I have to face another day of being tortured by my head :( my mom saw my arm and just was like why do u do it . I don't know why :( I guess she didn't get it :(

Sweetheart, don't you see ? Your mom isn't the one who doesn't "get it". Have you been praying those words I told you to pray ? I hope so. Keep on praying them, but now add on "I need you." So altogether pray "Mother Mary, help me. I need you." She will give you the strength and courage that you need to stop harming yourself.

Also, try this: Remember when you said that there was no where for you to go to help other people? Well, that isn't exactly true. You can help your mom. She counts as being"other people" Try doing things that you know will please your mom, things that she usually asks of you, only do them before she asks. Then, ask her "Hey Mom, is there anything else you need me to do for you ?" and do it. Always keep yourself busy by doing for those around you. May sound corny or strange, but I can tell you, that it helps when you help those around you. Also, smile when you do. It makes a huge difference. Even if you don't feel like smiling, smile anyway. Just imagine your mom's surprise when you start offering to do things for her. Give it a try.

You say you're a student teacher ? That's great. Look for ways to help the kids. Look into the eyes of each of those children, and offer to help them (even if it's only one child ) in whatever way that you can.

Last night I prayed for you. I prayed for you before I went to bed, and I prayed for you when I woke up at 3:00am (I sometimes wake up in the middle of the night like that), and I prayed for you this morning, and I will continue to pray for you. You must also do your part.

God has plans for you. You have a great future ahead of you. Your life has only just begun. Don't throw away the most precious gift there is - life.

Is there a Catholic Church near you ? Now don't worry, I'm not trying to change your religion or anything like that, but if there is a Catholic Church near you, try going inside of it and just sit. That's right. You don't have to do anything but sit there for a few minutes, then you can leave. Do this every day, as often as you can. Just go in and sit. That's it. Give it a shot. If there is no Catholic Church near you, I'm sure there is a chapel on campus, right ? If so, go in and sit.

I guess those all are worth a shot . Thanks for the advice . There are many churches neer by . The issue is I'm not allowed to drive currently because of what is going on :( and my mom will question me going to church since we are not christan:/ though I do see ur point of just going and sitting . I wonder if going to the beach would work ? The only issue is think of drowning when I go :( . I just need this to stop . I can't stop picking at my skin this morning . No matter what I try I find a way to do it again:?

The beach isn't the same. And that's okay if you're not christian, there's no harm in going in to the Church and just sitting there for a few minutes. Your mom brings you to school, right ? Is there a chapel on campus ? Your mom wouldn't have to even know about it that way. Best of luck to you.