Please dont do it. I too am having problems and have to reach out for help and strength. You are not alone in this. I will keep you in my prayers

I'm just fighting with all my might to fall asleep . I don't want to face another day of life .

Totally feel this. I'm too mucha chicken-shit to drink bleach. I'm sitting here crying on my keyboard because i realize how fucking pathetic i am... If nothing else, this may sound selfish... but reach out, just like you're doing, reading this helped me... I don't feel as alone... or crazy...

Let me try this again because the last post I made came out all wrong. Things seems really bad right now I understand that, I'm going through depression myself. I hate when I'm alone I hate being single it's just something I've never been able to deal with. So I usually try not to do that I usually have a backup every once in awhile I don't have that backup plan and I fall into this trap of deep depression. I have one of those needy personalities I need people, kind of sucks but anyways back to your problem. this is what I do when I'm feeling on the edge when I feeling like nothing else matters and I just want to die. I think about all the people that I would have hurt. I think about all the people that do love me. do you care about me, and I even think about the people that don't even really know me but I'm going to affect their lives my case manager my peer support my counselor therapist friends family members a lot of these people we don't think about how it affects our lives I work in Behavioral Health but I'm also you know a client but working in Behavioral Health I know that the things that my clients do affects my life horribly I had been so close to leaving because I have a hard time getting out of bed when I lose somebody. Every single individual that is touched by another individual is affected by their lives or lack thereof. So the next time you think about reaching for a bottle or you think about reaching for a knife or whatever it might be. think about who it affects think about who it destroys. And then take a moment and think about whether you want to destroy another person. And if you decide that it's not something that you want to do. figure out a way to make everyday count to make everyday matter. Volunteer help someone else out give something back to someone to make someone else's day happy I guarantee it'll make you happy.

I didn't end up doing it and I sadly made it through the night . Now I feel miserable and I don't know what to do . I just wish my life would end already .

No, no, no. It's not sad that you've lived to see another day ! It's not sad at all! My goodness, each day is a GIFT! Every day is precious. You should thank God that you are alive! you have lived to see yet another beautiful day. YEY! You go girl! As ridiculous as this sounds, I want you to do one thing for me....whether you feel like it or not, get up and dance! Yes, dance! Who cares what others may think - just listen to your favorite song and party! Also, listen to this motivational talk on you tube. It's really awesome! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3u6-Ukwwo_A

listen to this.... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I7fA8hdrqp8

Help someone else. Do something nice for someone else. Make a positive difference in someone else's life. There is no quicker way to finding happiness than there is by helping others. May sound corny, but it's true.

I guess . Well I don't know we're to do that . Currently I'm out of work and just being dragged around town by my mother . I just need life to be over already :(

Talk to your mom about how you feel - you are an adult, maybe you could try to get a job doing something that you enjoy, or maybe you could volunteer at a homeless shelter or even at a hospital. Set a goal for yourself. Write it down. Then begin to take the steps necessary to making that goal become a reality. Don't let a day go by without doing something that will get you closer to reaching your goal. And, NO - death is not a goal, so don't even go there. Listen to some motivational talks to help you reach your goal. You play the clarinet, right ? Try setting a goal for yourself like maybe to learn a certain song on the clarinet - challenge yourself. Make learning to play that song become the most important thing in your life. Practice. Study. Learn it.. Once you learn that song and can play it really well, set your next goal. Learn an even harder song. Never stop challenging yourself. If you can't decide on a song to learn, I'll give you one - how about "To Dream the Impossible Dream" now there's an inspirational song! C'mon, give the clarinet a shot. Change your focus. Set goals, and achieve! Remember, life is worth living!

I guess makes sense I just need to find the motivation and energy to do it . Even getting out of bed daily is an epic struggle :(I hate depression so much . I just got a text from my dr to reduce my medicine before she sees me on Saturday . I guess that is ok I'm just scared I won't make it alive till Saturday :(

What medication are you on ? Sometimes the meds can affect your moods. Follow your doctor's advice, and lower the meds. You WILL make it - you have to. Make yourself make it, focus on your music. Make that your goal. As long as you continue to have goals set for yourself, you can overcome this. I know what it's like to feel like your life is pointless - like you don't make a difference, but honey, that is something you can get past. This isn't the end for you - it's the beginning.

I'm on Effexor but I guess I'm coming off of it now . It's just weird I'm currently lying on a sofa waisting time before I go to school . But I wripped all my cuts open and there now bleeding :/ I just need to get this shit under control . I was busy all day but I just don't feel ok at all . My head won't stop and I still want to do stupid things :( I'm scared

WHOA! My dear, you have to stop and gain control of yourself! Why do you want to hurt yourself ? Are you trying to gain sympathy or attention ? Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to be judgemental or anything, but really, why do you do this to yourself ? Okay, okay, does anyone else know that you're bleeding ? Is someone there to help you ? GET HELP!!! Please.

I'm not doing it for attention. It just makes me feel better . If I can't kill myself I need to do somthing to hurt myself :( I'm really screwed up in the head right now :( I stopped bleeding and now I'm At school but all I do is cut when I'm there so idk :( . I just need help I guess . But i don't know if I am gonna get it till Saturday :(