It states that scoliosis is 1/3 genetic and 2/3 environmental... it isn't passed directly down from your parents. Isn't what i described about my situation exactly these environmental factors that played a role in my scoliosis? Having had underweight and maybe poor nutrition, bad sitting positions and maybe lack of minerals... isn't this ultimately what got me my 20° S curve scoliosis? I understand that noone knows where it's from. But it can't be 100% out of control for people to get scoliosis. (Im talking about the adolescent idiopathic ones) surely a child scoliosis is not anyones fault and it will unfortunately get worse until the child develops a rather bad case of scoliosis.
But for me it was detected when i was 19 years old. My back was normal in older pictures... isn't the hunger that i had, and the extreme anxiety coupled with the angry refusal to eat something in the past, the cause of my scoliosis?
By the way lets talk about this. Back then i was in a school that i really hated with annoying noisy people and i was also bullied by one person.. i think they even stole the lamp of my bicycle once lol. I dont really care about that. I had the full range of anxiety and my stomach felt sick all the time. My mouth was dry and i had a bad taste so i couldnt eat anything. Soon all this moved to after school life. My mind was racing all the time and i became angry. So... i decided not to eat anything even though i was hungry when coming home.. soon i became so thin that i had underweight of only 55 kg and i could hardly eat. There were a few times when i ate at home and i couldnt. My mom forced me to eat and then i suddenly puked because i was full. Hungry but full. It didnt work. And my parents also shouted at me for puking and for some of my bad grades...
Later i got sent to mental hospital and now i take olanzapin and sertralin. They said i had indifferent schizophrenia, asperger and psychosis. I had a weight gain once 10 kg in a week and now my weight is totally normal. And the new school is still uncomfortable but i get sort of good grades and it works... but that damn scoliosos!! I think it's my fault. I should have eaten something! Instead i decided to lay in bed all the time and listen to music... im so stupid.
does anyone have a hard time sleeping alone? I have my dog and she MUST be in bed with me when I fall askeeep. Even if I take a nap I HAVE to have her in bed with me. Even if she is just in the floor chewing her bone I have to bring her into the bed so I can sleep. Tonight I got home from work and after I showered I went into my parents room to get their two 65 pounds dogs cause I feel so...
My girl friend broke up with me and I’m having a really hard time with it I’m fourteen so I know it’s not the end of the world but it really sucks because I’ve been dealing with a lot from ptsd to friendships being ruined because of my sexuality and she helped me through all of that and I don’t have that any more :( any advice