Hi deary, it is alright. You are not alone and will never truly be alone. I know it's hard, but you are a strong, brilliant girl who many are proud to know. Putting up a facade is difficult to hold when you're feeling so pained, but try talking to someone you know. Or a crisis hotline. That way you're actually communicating and not hoarding yourself away. I hope this helped, try and get some rest dear. Goodnight, sweet dreams.

same here

So it sounds like its time to put the "fake you" away and let the real you be seen so that you can get the help that you need. Its hard for people, family/friends to know that you need help if you don't let them know what's going on with you. If you carry the charade too far then it gets really hard for people to understand and believe that you need real help.

I don't know how old you are because your profile is private, but perhaps talking to your parents about your feelings and figuring out how to get some help from a Therapist or seeing a Psychiatrist. I hope that you're able to stop the act and let your true feelings come forth so that you can get the help you need and the support you need from family and friends.

Hiding your issues from a Mental Illness like Depression, never helps anything as people don't know whats up with you and after you've been doing it for so long, the tend to have a problem believing the truth.

Take care and please get some help with your illness.

Kat

Hope you get the help you need-- it is very hard to keep up a happy facade all the time, and believe it or not, after awhile people start to see through it. Time to remove the mask and practice some self-care. All my best to you.

Depression is a doorway to two very different worlds.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wa5IF7x-ziA

We are unable to know your age so if you are not a adult yet, talk to your parents. Tell them you have something important to talk to them about. Tell them how you have been feeling and that you think you need some professional help. They can make arrangements for you to see a psychiatrist who can make a diagnosis and determine whether or not you need medication and/or talk therapy. Please get the help you need as soon as possible.

Same here. Just goes to show that you are not the only one. You are not alone. We will get through these. Brighter days in the future.

I am sorry to hear of the anxiety, pain, and struggle that you have been feeling. Have you ever heard the song "Beautiful You" by Johnny Diaz? I would encourage you to talk to your physician, to find a Christian counselor, or a licensed professional who can help you sort through the things that you have been feeling. Your life has both meaning and purpose. Feel free to message if there is any other way that I can be of assistance.

I'm sorry to hear about the pain that you are going through. Just know you are not alone and if you need someone to talk to, I am here. Try to breathe and you should try reaching out for professional help. Stay strong.