Anna1212 - You are exhausted and need a break. I hope you can find time to get some good rest today. I, too, am very exhausted and feeling weak. physically and mentally right now so I am with you. Hope things get better for you soon and you can get help that you need. Sending you love and hugs and prayers.

Anna - sounds like you need a break to rest and recharge. Can you do that? I hope things get better.

Sending you support and hugs.

Thank you both so much. Your replies make me feel less alone and that's a big part of it. Yes, I do need rest. Unfortunately I need to work, too. Trying my best to balance it. I've been crying off and on lately which for me is good since I usually can't cry and it feels really good to cry and let some of the sadness out. I also feel bad about what is going on in the world. So much turmoil and suffering. I wish more people would be kind to each other like we are on here. That would make such a big difference. I am being harassed badly at work and it makes me physically sick. Thank you again.

HI Anna, I am sorry to hear that you are depressed, unhappy and sad. I think that you are just burnt out: after 30 years of public service in a hostile environment and coupled to the pressures of caring for a parent ---- have all built up and exploded. That's what I have felt after spending 10 years working in hospitals.

It sounds like you need a holiday. If the COVID restrictions have lifted in your state, can you travel to a relative's home perhaps, to have a break? Here in my state, carers are allowed to have respite care and the people they are caring for are admitted into a rehabilitation hospital where the elderly are taught to exercise by physiotherapists and fed nutritious foods by dieticians. Can you access that kind of service before your health insurance ends?

Take care Anna, hope that you will feel better soon. Marie

I have been drifting between "not participation" and then trying to "participate". Dunno. In a way,I am in a similar vessel than you. Hang in there.

I feel exactly the same way. But neither of us should give up. What can we do??

Ditto. Feeling that way myself today. Very overwhelmed and having to deal with things that I never thought that I'd have to deal with.
I am getting away from people at home and that helps some.
But then other times I feel lonely and neglected.
It seems that our household is tense.
If I tell my husband that I am really upset about something or don't feel
well, it seems (and I could be wrong) that he always has to outdo me.
I was completely overwhelmed when he got home today and asked him
to sit with me for five minutes. He couldn't (had to go to the store to
get something for dinner--which I appreciate). But taking 5 minutes
to be with me would have gone a long way.
I am having a hard time feeling close to him or feeling cared about.
Anyway I didn't mean to hijack your conversation but as you can see you are not alone. Trying to surmount the insurmountable. Life is so hard sometimes. Hope that you'll hang in there.

you not alone going through same think no friend to talk everybody turn their back after my wife pass

You are not alone!❤️

It certainly can feel like it when everyone around you seems to be getting along just fine.

Just remember that this sucks, but there will be a moment when it doesn’t suck quite so much, and maybe something will even make you smile. If you have just a few minutes watch a funny YouTube video. I know it’s an escape and doesn’t address the root of your problem, but it can give you a teeny tiny vacation.

You are not alone! We are here for you anytime you need. Please know that you are an important person and you are loved even when it doesn't feel like it. Please post here anytime you need. I have been harassed at work and it made my life so miserable. I ended up switching jobs even though I didn't want to. It was hard and sad but my life ended up being better due to less stress. Hugs to you!

I understand you need the job, are you a nurse? I have heard stories that it can be and was very difficult especially with the covid. If you are a nurse, I commend you. It must be a very difficult job, plus caring for a love one.

When your not at work try to do things that make you happy or diversions, is my suggestion. A bubble bath, nice music. Hang in there. Perhaps another type of therapy. 7 cups.com is a little helpful, prayer. There are a lot of prayers on youtube.

I have been caring for my Mom too somewhat , I don't live with her. I hear your pain.
Cam you get a part time home health aid? We have meals on wheels in this area, something like that may help.

Feel better, better days ahead

thank you all for your replies. It's such a big help to get all that support and understanding. I'm still struggling but at least I know I'm not alone. No I'm not a nurse but I do work with the public a lot.

Hi Anna. I’m here for you. I too feel similarly, too much negativity/misunderstanding In the world and then on top of that, we have responsibilities to ourselves to practice self-care and be our best selves which doesn’t feel feasible.

Try to remember that you are loved by the universe. You are special and important. Your life matters to me. I am sending you so many good vibes in universe wherever you are. There will be a moment where you don’t feel like this. Keep hanging in there. You are doing the best you can <3