Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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justaconfusedguy 08/24/2010

most of the time during the summer im pretty happy and i stop being depressed/cutting exept for one day out of mabey a month. over the past few days iv just been depressed alot mostly at night, i just feel that im just going to fucking snap one day. its not even the start of the school year and im already just going insane rushing thoughts, i just feel like there is this war going on inside me between being happy like i want to be and the depressed side.... over the past few days it feels like the depressed side is winning, i feel like im going to be back into my old cycle of depression cutting and self hatred :/ im just not who i was earlier in my life i feel like a total different person, i went from being happy and content to being how i am now. :/ i just feel so fucked up right now

deleted_user 08/24/2010

I am sorry you feel this way. I don't really have any advice to give you, but I can offer an ear, I am a pretty good listener. I also know how you feel, because that is how I feel often. Sometimes, meditation helps and just venting, even online helps. Sorry I can't be much of a help.

chelle37 08/24/2010

I'm sorry things are so hard for you right now. Did anything happen in the last few days to stress you out? Are you worried about school coming up? What are the thoughts about when you talk about having the rushing thoughts? I hope you can work through some of your self hatred and get to a place where you don't hate yourself. ((hugs)) hang in there ok?

Kook 08/25/2010

Hi,,,well there is something going on.. Most of the time its something that...went...on back in an upbringing. Anyone that i know that has cut has been sexually abused or came from a tremendously screwed up family. If thats the case then you probably know, sometimes we dont know and find out later. Maybe a chem imbalance if upbringing was fine. Do you go to therapy? Plz talk us here before you cut.

ladybuglover369 08/25/2010

I think maybe the depression and school are linked. Is it possible you don't feel accepted at school? I sure hope things get better. If you need to talk I'm here.

ZAZAS 08/25/2010

I hope you feel better soon. And, good luck with school.

MaRhianna 08/25/2010

You say you used to be happy but now feel there is a war going on inside you.
What has caused this feeling?
Has anything happened or are you worried about school?
Sounds as though you need therapy so I urge you to see a doc to get the help you need.
Keep posting and talking as it's good to get things out of your system.

justaconfusedguy 08/26/2010

i just feel like my grip on reality is just slowly slipping and no matter what happens ill still be the same angry self hating pissed off person and that ill never get back to the old happy me no matter how hard i try :/

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