Morning everyone woke up feeling blah blah blah, not sure how to feel this morning, I can hear my mother walking around upstairs, and all I can think about is what is she getting into, that I may have to fix later, because she has signs of  dementia and having a hard time excepting it, so she feels like when she is doing something it’s helping, but she makes it worse, I really want to go back to work, but I know I need to be with her,  and  definitely  don’t want a stranger in our home with her, and she made me promise not to put her in a home and said she will refuse to go , but it’s hard to do anything when she is in denial of the  disease, I’m overwhelmed mentally and emotionally, I use to wake up with so much life in me, to don’t want to wake up ......