First of all, let me say that I am happy to hear that you are home. That means that you are somewhat better even though you may not fully feel that way yet.

Second, you may be physically alone but please know that you are not alone. The depression and anxiety will be hard to bare but eventually it will pass. I was in a similar position not too long ago and I had to literally take life one moment at a time. I had to strip away every thought about what I should be doing and focus on what I was able to do at the time.

Actually the holidays are a great time to find retail work, even if it's just temporary.

@Heidiclark, That's true, but then there's the rush of people and it's super late in the season. Most places are full or over staffed. My job mentioned previously is extremely short on staff and is trying to get me back just for the holidays, but I'm not sure if I can handle it.

Sounds like your body wants you to rest. People who work all the hours god gives tend to crash and burn eventually; because they're not taking time to reflect, process or regenerate. What would happen if you let your body take the lead right now, in terms of telling you what it needs?

PS lots of work at Christmas. But it's generally fixed term holiday period stuff.

Congrats on continuing the job search! A lot of people just file for SSDI and give up. You're doing the right thing. As far as a job, just keep looking. You might find the perfect fit for your life right now. As far as having the desire to venture farther than the front yard, baby steps: I'd take a walk, down to the end of the block today, a little farther tomorrow, etc.

I feel your pain, I also had to quit a stressful job a few months ago. And I very much want to get back to being my productive self. Are you ok financially? If so then maybe some volunteer work would get you through the holidays and re-charge your soul?

If you look at the habits of all the successful people in the world, what they do is visualize what they want and the steps needed to get there. We tend to become what we project, it's just the way the world operates!

One of the things that helped me when I was in between jobs is to go outside. Even if I had no motivation to do anything, just being outside walking around my house, taking in deep breaths of the cool fall air, seemed to help me. Eventually, I would go for long walks which turned into jogs which turned into runs which turned into completing a marathon. That was many years ago, of course but the idea is, I use to visualize crossing the finish line with my hands raised in victory!

Like you said, try to avoid feeling sorry for yourself, that will just make it take longer to reach your goals. Stay positive, have gratitude, even if it's something small like for the food you eat for dinner. or for the soft grass under your feet. You get the idea. These are just a few things you can do that will help you. Try it, you will be surprised!

God Bless!