Hugs and my deepest sympathy, hon. This is such sad news.

Ruv you, ruv you, ruv you

Wow, that's rough. I'm really sorry for your loss. I don't understand how people could not understand how heartbroken you are!

I think any normal, feeling, caring person who lost somebody they loved (to suicide yet!) would be shocked and terribly saddened.

Of course you always deserve to post, whatever you feel and whenever you feel like posting!

Big {{{{{hugs}}}}}} to you.

Beastie,

I'm glad to see you again, but sad that you need to come back here. I"m sorry for your loss. My grandfather committed suicide back in '84, so I have some idea of the pain you are suffering. I too have someone I would love to be my soul mate, but he isn't interested, so I know that loss too. Please come back as much as you need and don't worry about being supportive of others right now. You are grieving and don't worry about taking care of us right now.

Annie

i am very sory for your loss i will keep you in my prayers .................god bless

Oh Beastie. I am so so sorry.............. know you are in my thoughts and prayers and i ruv you rong rong rong rong time ... and always will xoxo

(((((((((((((( COMFORTING HUGS ))))))))))))))))))

Oh Beastie *gentle hugs*
I am so sorry for your loss and I am here if you need to talk
xxx

Oh Beastie, I am so sorry, and I know I am unable to say anything to make you feel better......Probably no one there can do anything except to let you know how much you are loved.

You have every right to feel horrible about such a loss; just because others say you don't have a right to feel this way doesn't mean you don't have a right to feel bad. They might not understand, but I hope you understand.

Such grief is difficult to understand. There are many stages of grief that you will be going through; the stages should eventually become easier, but it still will be difficult. However, you are strong enough for this.

I hope you don't feel guilty or feel as if you could have done something about this, as many people who experience a loved one's suicide do feel. Suicide is an extremely complicated matter and it's something that often no one can see coming; it's wrong to feel guilty, but it's normal. As many with severe suicidal thoughts may know......

You also have every right to post here, always. You are ALWAYS welcome. I understand being here but being (almost) completely unable to post, but I posted for you today. (And I will try to post for many others because I know that's also good for me; I want to surprise myself by posting).

I want to give you the biggest, bear HUGS, with my deepest LOVE!

I am sorry Beastie. I have been thinking about you. Last night I decided I was going to message you to find out if you were doing better. I see you are not. I can understand the mixed feelings. He is someone you loved once. You just can't stop loving someone or at least caring about them. You are a very loving caring person. I've lost someone to suicide and it hurts very much. If you need to talk.....love you very much! Susan

I am so sorry. How shocking it must be. It is sad that people around you are not understanding. I can relate to loving your X, I am the same way. I too would be devastated to find out he was gone. Life is so fragile.
(((HUGS)))

Sorry for your loss. It's tragic to lose someone, especially in that manner. Hugs

Im really sorry. I know all too well the shock that losing someone you care about this way brings. Its very sad that the people in your lufe are unable to just see you are grieving and need their support and live, nit their crass comments. Im glad you came here! We live you. We wont judge you. We're here for you always in good times and very rough ones like this.

dear matb----------what an awful thing to happen to you...i will be thinking about this....

I'm really sorry to hear of your loss.
I would be extremely sad if anyone I had a relationship with took their own life.
I hope you find support and comfort during this sad time. No doubt it will be Outside of your family.
That is pretty cold hearted what your mother said. Wow.

I hope you will keep in touch, as much as you can, hon. Im-a gonna worry about you!

Please check back in with us; you are so loved!

I don't understand how people can be so cruel. Next month will be a year when I lost my ex husband to suicide and I am still struggling with the loss. Each day does get easier, but there are things that people didn't like about him. But they didn't understand him like I did either. Keep the good memories close by honey. Hugs GB