Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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meandthebeast 12/02/2011

Hi... my name is Y'Vonne and I am an alcoholic.............................................................When I am in the black hole, I have to fight the demons not to drink.... I have been doing a good job of it but its really hard...really hard... a fight for my life..

I am bi polar and I have traded that addiction for one that is driving me crazy.. When I am in the black hole I suffer horribly and have a hard time getting out of bed.. But when I am on an up on my roller coaster ride, I get on E-bay and spend tons of money... I was left an inheritance from my ex and I have gone through it in three years.. I did pay off my house which is good but that is about the only constructive thing I have done... I have spent over $75,000 on gold and silver jewelry and even bought a Harley Davidson Road King trike on E-bay.... Its driving me crazy and could leave me in a financial mess if I dont pull my head out of my ass.

Ok so I have admitted it.. Now I need to do something about it.... What is your addiction if you have one?

deleted_user 12/02/2011

Umm... I'm addicted to addiction.

I won't do 'hard' drugs - I do at least have the sensibility to steer clear of those because god knows I'd be instantly hooked.

I'm not terribly comfortable divulging my list... but there are many.

My issue isn't admitting the fact. Mine is that I can't seem to find a good enough reason to quit the majority of them.

Hugs to you m'dear

xx

doghunter59 12/02/2011

I took me a while BUT I found out... I ain't no quitter....

So I just live with it, and, IT is many things....

deleted_user 12/02/2011

So you ARE a quitter, doghunter....

You quit trying to quit :P

meandthebeast 12/02/2011

I use to say the same thing doggy... yep... and I dont go to those classes... roflmao

deleted_user 12/02/2011

My addictions are not the usual ones. I do things to escape mentally. It doesn't matter what it is, I just find something to pass the hours--scrapbooking, stamping, watercolors, photography, you name it, I've probably had it as a hobby and have the boxes of associated crap that go along with it.

Then when I discovered the internet . . . well it's just so easy to get on here and waste time.

deleted_user 12/02/2011

whatever takes me away...hey mean!

deleted_user 12/02/2011

I switch a lot between different vices. It'll be pain killers one week, alcohol the next, sleeping pills after that, and then weed for a while. On bad nights, I mix a bunch of them together and basically pass out. I also recently picked up smoking tobacco again after 7 years.

I found there's a thing called polysubstance dependence, in which a person is addicted to feeling "high" without using any particular drug consistently. It seems to fit my patterns, anyway.

ZAZAS 12/03/2011

Same as yours Yvonne. Before, I filed for bankrupcy I did the same thing. AA helps. As for the spending, I didn't realize it was problem until it was to late. All I can suggest is Ebay works both ways, when your straped for cash sell some of what you bought. I also eat to replace the spending addiction and to feed my depression.

ZAZAS 12/03/2011

that is why I look like this avatar!

immarcie 12/03/2011

I cannot begin to say how courageous I see you.
I know you have so many issues going on at once and yet you are able to keep fighting.

If ever there was a "hero" I feel you belong on the top of the list!!!!

doghunter59 12/03/2011

yes Ephe,I quit quitting which is very hard to do as one must know. And, the trick to this accomplishment was to do everything in abundance till the pockets ran dry... then and only then can one have the perspective to say "I'll quit that" and behold as soon as I found whatevr shook the fancy that would B indulged in and it was off 2 the race's

kind of like a moth 2 a light.... you can tell that moth ain't no quitter either....

srry if ur brain is bleeding now... mine is..oh I must quit that....NOT....

Sorry, but I am addicted 2 Life, sad but true....

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