Can you at least talk to us about what's going on before you do it? At least give us a chance to help before you end it. Please !!!

Im dealing with 3 teenage girls 2 ex husbands 1 bf and his drunk father. The screaming, yelling and cussing is driving me crazy

That would drive anyone crazy. Can you at least ask for just a little peace and quiet from those who are yelling and screaming all the time?

Hold on Bamamom. I know it feels like there is no way out now, but you never know where the future will take you.

You're in a terribly difficult situation at the moment. I believe if you search deep inside you will find the strength to make it thought. I believe in you!

I wish but the ones screaming own this house and the kids are at their dads so I can get a small break

Can you leave the house while the kids are away and do something by yourself and for yourself?

nope had to sit and wait they werent gone long

Are you seeing a doctor or therapist?

Hope you are feeling better

And your girls? Are you going to leace them with the husbamd of your friend who wants to molest them? Such a great legacy.

Bama you are going through more than your fair share. I am sorry evrything is so chaotic. My dear German friend always tells me that for every problem, there is a solution.
We just need to find one.
I am positive that you will get through this- we will get through this. You are not alone.
Do you have any family whatsoever around Bamamom?
((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))

No I don't have any family here they are all 600 miles away. I don't intend on leaving my girls here they have a father. I am trying to wait till this weekend when they are over there with him. I have things I need to take care of first anyway.

Bamamom you don't mind if the girls are with thier biological father right now, so is it possible you ask him to care for the girls while you go visit your mom?
Do you think you could consider that for awhile and give it a try and then resume planning when you come back?

no i cant stay with her i would not last a day without someone doing more damage to me than has already been done. They will be fine...I know they will.

everyone had drama and bullshit, some worse than yours. it's the depression that is making you want to kill yourself, you are ill. and you need help. your daughters will never forgive you..i'm sorry to say this, but they won't especially if you are leaving them w/ shit to deal with. i don't know, it's not a good idea.