Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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tbbrandyn 12/04/2011

I have been going through some things in the last few months and it dont seem to get any better for me. I have moved to another state 5 hours from my dad and sister and friends to give me and my family a better life. I am taking college classes online full time, homeschooling my 7 year old son who has ADHD, a 19 month old son, and I had a miscarriage 2 months ago and with the holidays coming up so fast this year it has me feeling a little depressed. I dont know what to do anymore. My mom works night shift and my boyfriend works days and i am home all day with my boys and I feel like the walls of the house are closing in on me because i dont really get out of the house but to go to the store and then i come right back home. so i am maybe out of the house 10 mins. I am at the point that i just want to cry all the time and not do anything at all. Today i just felt like i couldnt do anything anymore, like i am failure with homeschoolig my son and taking more time away from my 19month old son and boyfriend, not wanting to do my school work but i know that i have to do it so that i can give my boys whatever that they wat in life and be able to have everything that we want down the road. i just dont feel lik i can do it anymore and that i am just giving up on life. i just dont want to feel like this anymore and i have had this feeling in the past and i didnt like it but i was able to get help but now i cant because i moved away from all my doctors and i dont know anyone here and i dont talk to my friends that much anymore bc i think that they are scared of what to say around me like they are scared to say the wrong thing around me now days. i just dont know what i am going to do anymore and i dont like this. i like to be in control of things and right now i am not in control of my life and it makes me feel uneasy and i dont like it. but i dont know what to do. i really dont.

deleted_user 12/04/2011

ANYONE would be having a very hard time in your situation. It sounds like you need to work on getting some support as well as some personal time with other adults! If you suffer from chronic depression it sounds like its time to find some new doctors in your new area too. What are some steps you can take to get yourself some more support in your new area? For example, it is fair to tell your husband that you need some time to yourself so you'll be going to the gym a few times a week. He can handle the kids for a few hours in the evening a few times a week. Also, you could look into home school clubs/associations in your area.What else do you think you could handle doing to make things a little better? hugs

deleted_user 12/04/2011

Hi tbbrandyn,

it sounds like you have a lot going on and have gone through a lot of changes recently! I understand that feeling. I give you credit for all that you do. Please be kind to yourself and love yourself. I am here for you :)

deleted_user 12/04/2011

Wow anyone could be overwhelmed with what you're dealing with. In all of what you're doing for others it's very important to take care of you. I might suggest a bereavment group that deals with a loss such as yours. The physical and nmental problems that can be associated with a miscarriage I can only guess to be very profound. You have come to a great place online here. As I've already said there is no shortage of compassionate caring people here. I hope you can talk with your boyfriend and that maybe you two can come up with a way to alleviate some of what is going on with you. Also please try to find someone professional to talk with. A therapist and / or a doctor. Your problems are just as important as anyone elses. You deserve to feel better. I truly wish you all the best.((( Hugs )))

deleted_user 12/04/2011

Personality wise you sound just like me right now. I am a control freak about myself. I don't like not being able to control myself and what I choose to do. I am overwhelmed just taking 2 college courses not to mention that you have a 19 month old and a 7 year old with ADHD who you homeschool! That is intense!! One thing I can suggest to get out of the house and maybe make some friends or just have a good time with your son is to get him active in maybe some sort of sport or try to find out if there are other parents homeschooling in the area and maybe set up playdates or take him to a park or a Museum (if you go the museum route take him somewhere that you think he'd like and just spend as much time as he is interested, try to make it a learning environ) My mom did a lot of this for me even though I wasn't home schooled and I really love my memories of childhood. It will require effort from you but this way your son won't be isolated and you'll get yourself out there. Big Hugs!! If you ever want anyone to talk to just message me!

tbbrandyn 12/04/2011

Thank you all. I have been looking into some of the churches close by that have homeschooling groups that attend there and meet so often so he can make new friends and get more out of what i am teaching him everyday. I am tryig to find a doctor in the area but i am having trouble getting insurance and once i get that step done then getting a doctor will not be a problem. My boyfriend/hubby to be, trys to help me come up with something to do so that i can get out of the house but with not knowing anyone around here it is kind of hard to do anything or find out what is going on in the town.

I have found an online support group on this site too and it has been helpful. But i think that there are times that i just get a little overwelmed with everything that i have to do and try to get done everyday and i dont kow how to just stop. its like i have to keep going and not sit still for long or i get bored and thats not a good thing for me.

there are times that i try to talk to him but i dont know if he dont hear me or he just dont want to talk about it at the time, so i dont say anything else about it. There are times that w do talk about a few things but it seems like it is pulling a tooth to get him to talk some times.

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