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Again. The Morning Fight again.
The Morning Fight is me waking up between 5 and 6:30 (I don't have to get up until 7)...headache, neckache, often intermittant dizziness, and a strange feeling in my digestion that grabs my emotions and twists really hard. I do Mindful Meditation to try and calm the anxiety and stave off the sadness; once in a while, it works, oftentimes, it doesn't. I usually end up getting up early and writing in my journal.
The next step is to try and not get sad and anxious about getting sad and anxious. This is EXTREMELY hard for me because I lose so much time, so many days dealing with this, and having my family deal with me like this. Spending at least half of one's time feeling sad and anxious....it's no fun.
The other week I simply could not stop feeling sad, but instead of what I usually do which is mentally look at the list of reasons I have to be sad (we all have a list) in an attempt to figure out WHY I was sad (if I know why I am sad, maybe I can stop it), I embraced the sadness and did not let it get into deeper layers. I cried, then stopped, and when sadness hit me again I cried again. When it was finally over, I felt purged, and didn't stay sad, which is what looking at that list would've done ie: the list would've reminded me of all the things that are or haven't worked out in my life, and sadness would've been multiplied by hundreds.
But the Morning Fight...if it only happened once in a while, that would be ok, but it's become the norm. I miss the days when I just got up and started my day feeling normal...I want more mornings like that. Even though the day can sometimes improve, to start the day FIGHTING to feel at least not so bad...it's exhausting. Also, because I wake up so early, I spend the rest of the day tired, unless I can get a nap in there somewhere. The fatigue furthers diminishes all my immune systems: physical, mental, AND emotional, so the day becomes a somewhat hellish thing to just get through.
Since school is out and my husband has a day off, I'm going to crawl back into bed and see if I can fall asleep....and maybe start the day on a better note.
Good luck out there to you all, and may your day bring you joy.
I hope you catch up on your sleep and feel more energized soon.
Again, big hugs to you all!