Hi Singer
I am also on vacation. Your grief does not leave you when
you go on vacation. It is still "fresh" grief. I am so sorry for your loss. The tears
may help you to heal. Be kind to yourself.

All normal feelings when dealing with the loss of someone special. Grieving is a long, difficult process. Allow yourself time. Hold on to the ones who are hurting too and draw strength from the ones you love. You are not alone in this.

I am so sorry to hear about your Mom. That is wonderful that you were so close. I give you credit for going away with your family with such a broken heart. Try to realize that your Mom will always be with you now. You can still talk to her. And for now, let those tears out.

You won't be able to escape the way you feel for quite a while. Crying and the sad feelings are normal. Only time will make it a little better. Try to enjoy yourself for now, make it pleasant for your family. If they want to go to the beach, they can go and then you stay in the hotel room and cry it out for a while. After a good cry, you may feel a little better. You have to let it out for now.

Hi- I’m so sorry to hear about your Mom.
After my Mom passed away, whenever I go to malls it reminds me of her. She loves shoes and clothes and every time I go to malls, I remember her. She was happy when I gave her gifts and I miss her especially on special occasions.

Losing someone we love is difficult. I am very close to my Mom and I love her so much. I grieved for a year. I cried almost everyday. Grieving has no timetable so give yourself time to grieve. Cry when you need to.

Having a trusted friend that you can talk to would be helpful. You can also come back anytime and share with us, we are here for you and willing to listen. Prayers for you, for comfort as you go through this hard time.

Thank you for all your kind words and thoughts. My mom's passing has made me really think about my relationships with others and some of my decisions. I miss her everyday. I feel like if I talk about it, it will help. I don't want to suppress my feelings because that just ends up being a bigger mess.

Don't try to force yourself to have a good time just because it is a vacation. As mentioned by other people allow your emotions to occur. Be gentle to yourself and let your daughter and husband know that you are grieving but it does not mean that they have to do it with you. They can still go out and have a great time. When thinking of your mom or being reminded of her by events or certain locations know that it is your mom communicating to you her love and peace. She may be gone physically but she has just changed her form. I am sure you still feel her and see her. Maybe not physically but you will see signs of her in many places. So greet her and welcome her to stay longer if she wishes. This pain is your experience, your mom is no longer limited by the body. She no longer feels pain or fear or anguish. She is completely free now. Have the best day you can have.

ReaDyo
I definitely have moments that I just can't control. The thing that hits me hard is when my daughter asks me, "Can grandma come back if we make a wish on a star?" I have to tell her the truth. That's hard. The other day I heard her talking to a jewlery box with a ballerina that my mom gave her. It plays music too. She was saying, "I am confused grandma, why did you leave?" She's five by the way. So much more emotionally astute than I ever was. I told her it's ok to be confused and it's ok to say you miss grandma and your sad. Maybe I should take my own advice..
As far as I go, I believe she hears me. I talk to her all the time. I also wear a necklace of a dragonfly pendant that has some of her ashes in it. I have worn it since I got it. I don't know why but it helps me feel close to her. Just like when my grandma passed away, I wore her jewlery for a long time. I just miss them both so much. They were both my everything.

I am very sorry for the loss of your Mom, also. If you've writer or artist, perhaps you can Express your grief that way or use another creative way.