I am sorry that your parents are still not supporting you. You are worthy of living. Did your doctor give you any medication? Please don't do anything to harm yourself.

Thank you... Even I'm still thinking that I'm not that worth it. I cannot do anything right, even make people around me happy :( thanks for your concern. @ sharaninmd

yeah, its not easy living with the "happy go lucky's" of the world....and it's not easy living in a place where mental health services are not prevalently available. But....you have to keep you as the person you worry about and take care of most. Wishing ill and bad will to those who don't suffer like we who deal with Depression do doesn't solve anything.....and if you take a second, just maybe a second and stop to think and feel....would you really want the people you love to feel like this. I can't imagine ever wishing my sons would feel like this and have to battle this and have to fight to make life good and plentiful and worth the effort it takes to stay rooted on this planet....unfortunatelly my wishes do not come true and my oldest son deals with depression. But like me he chooses to hit it head on and deals with it by helping others and using those good feelings to offset the bad. He's a Fireman, EMT and in the Army National Guard, I'm very proud of that boy for all the good he does in this world, when I'm not sure this world deserves all that he goest through for it.

So, you get to choose, you can be angry, and mad, and shake your fist at the unfairness of life or you can build the strength you have inside yourself and hit the depression head on. There is nothing wrong with utilizing whatever tools you have to to battle your depression. Suicide Hotlines are there for that very reason, to help people who have no other resource. So never feel bad for using them. There are many helpful therapies that you can do for yourself at home without the need for a Professional Therapist to be beside you...its not the easiest road but its one you can take it you want....your choice.

I'd be more than happy to share some of those with you if you want.....

Take Care,

Kat

How's it going today? I call the suicide line, too sometimes to talk. some are very nice. others not as compatible. i'm so sorry your are suffering so much. I suffer like this too. I turn to my animals/cats a lot for comfort. it is very hard. keep going. hang in there.

I don't know. I'm trying to be fine, even pretending that I'm fine and don't have any problem, but I can't. If only I had baymax or any squishy dolls, whatever need to cry on:(