Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I'm not sure what group to post this in, considering I am dealing with so many issues. I can't sort them apart anymore. But depression is what I feel most heavily now, so I'll start here. A friend told me she didin't want to talk to me anymore last week. She said I was "too much" and that she never really considered me a friend in the first place and that I basically made the whole thing up (even though she legitimately said she liked being friends with me unprompted in the past, and ethusiastically kept up conversation). I admit, I can be very clingy. I worry that if I don't get a text back, the person hates me, so I tend to double text. (Note: People have suggested in the past that this is BPD. I have discussed this with my therapist and I just don't meet the critera for BPD other than the fear of abandonment). I felt very dependent on her. I guess I still do, which is why I'm so upset. I can't imagine being happy without talking to her. Not to mention, I feel completely worthless and alone. I'm such a burden on everyone. This is not the first time I have been called "too much." Everyone ends up hating me. My depression has been really bad the past few days. I don't feel like doing anything besides laying in bed. Everything hurts. I just feel the deepest, most painful sadness. I've been dealing with mental health issues for six years. I've been doing all the right things- meds, therapy, etc. And it feels like nothing ever gets better. I don't know why I'm posting on here because I don't know what kind of advice I'm looking for. I just don't want to be so alone.
I also know what it feels like to not get the right treatment and do everything right. I found out that my problem this whole time was complex ptsd but depression and anxiety were my diagnoses. I believe they are actually symptoms for me because once I started tackling complex ptsd, I started to get better.
Idk what your diagnosis is but you might want to seek out other opinions if therapy and medicine have not worked. Doctors are quick to slap on the depression diagnosis without digging and it ends up hurting patients.
As for your friend, perhaps she is overwhelmed and doesn't know how to support you. I think what she said was awful either way, saying she never considered you a friend. That tells me she may not be worth the effort to fix the friendship and communication between you. But maybe this is an area you can work on for future friendships.
If you trust your current therapist, talk to them about this. They may help.
Oh honey your not alone. And that was not a nice thing your friend did there. She is not good friend material.
Oh honey your not alone. And that was not a nice thing your friend did there. She is not good friend material.
Oh honey your not alone. And that was not a nice thing your friend did there. She is not good friend material.
Oh honey your not alone. And that was not a nice thing your friend did there. She is not good friend material.
Message me if you'd like to discuss it. You're worth 'fixing' simply because you're worth it! there doesn't need to be any other reason. You are enough! Period!
We can only appreciate the miracle of a sunrise if we have waited in the darkness. ~Author Unknown