Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I'm feeling very suicidal again. I almost drove off the road and into a wall today on purpose. I stopped myself though. The only way to keep from killing myself is to cut. At least then I feel pain. I'm so sick of this. I know I need to fight once again to get better. I don't know how many more times I can drag myself out of the hole though. I just want to die. When I try to fall asleep all I can think of is ways to kill or hurt myself. It makes me never want to go to bed. I feel so sad it hurts. I hate myself. I'm disgusting. I just want to die.
I understand. I have been self harming for 23 years.
there are days that the call death sends my way is very very strong.
Please keep talking... we are here for you... please
But, well -do you have any idea of the root of your depression? Is it past issues or predominately chemical imbalance. I'm asking a lot of personal questions so feel free to NOT answer any of them or just some of them.
You need to hang on.. I know it's hard. I have made the serious attempts at ending it. I know this is hard to believe, but it is easier to continuing living.
As for the cutting, I have faith in you. You can beat this. It will not be easy, no. But if you are willing to put the effort into living that you are putting into thinking about dying. It can be done. You have taken a huge step in coming here for help.
Have you talked with your doctor about your frustrations over things not improving? Your thoughts of death?
Remember, you are not alone.