Seems like a very dark place. How long have you been depressed? Has something happened recently? Yes! -I'm SO with you on the constant yo-yo of depression -have you tried meds or therapy?

we are here to listen

meds and therapy both will help when i was doin both it did help you need to find someone to talk to who will perscribe something for you to take.

hello my friend.

I understand. I have been self harming for 23 years.

there are days that the call death sends my way is very very strong.

Please keep talking... we are here for you... please

Im on meds and have been for 2 years and i have been in therapy for 3.5 yet thinks never stay better.

Ohhh hun..You are so young and beautiful...Do you have family you can turn to for support? Or any close friends? How long have you been on the Effexor? {{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Have you tried different combination of meds -you know what? I'm being completely stupid here cause I'm terrible with my meds so asking about someone else is kind of lame...
But, well -do you have any idea of the root of your depression? Is it past issues or predominately chemical imbalance. I'm asking a lot of personal questions so feel free to NOT answer any of them or just some of them.

no, they do not stay better. life has it's normal ups & downs. unfortunately, those of us who have depression, those ups & downs are much more severe.

You need to hang on.. I know it's hard. I have made the serious attempts at ending it. I know this is hard to believe, but it is easier to continuing living.

As for the cutting, I have faith in you. You can beat this. It will not be easy, no. But if you are willing to put the effort into living that you are putting into thinking about dying. It can be done. You have taken a huge step in coming here for help.

Have you talked with your doctor about your frustrations over things not improving? Your thoughts of death?

Remember, you are not alone.

Sorry you are so down, keep reaching out to all of us. How can I help?

**Flick**

I sent you a PM my friend.

i pretty much know the root of my depression its both a chemical imballance and past issues (mostly with my mom. I have tries 3 different medications. i have talked to my therapist about everything. Shes knows I am frustrated, that I am feeling really down and that I am sick of fighting. I have no energy left to fight or to hold on. Luckily I don't have any energy to kill myself at the moment either. I wish I could just be happy

Do you think your counselor is helpful? Maybe experiment with other counselors. Man, it just sucks doesn't it?! The up's and downs of depression!

She has gone off to bed, but she has promised to message me later on.

i know exactly how you feel. one thing that finally helped me was i realised i was having suicidal thoughts, i didnt really want to die so i wasnt suicidal. the thoughts are still there but dont have as much power over me anymore. i also cut myself instead, but am managing to do that less often. i hope this helps you