I have a pretty serious question and would like other peoples advice if at all possible. I have had suicidal thoughts since January. Although I am not totally sure, my doctors and I believe that it is because of my severe OCD and anxiety which has led me to become depress because all I do all day is worry and perform compulsions; it also has not helped that I started college last year and am living in a dorm (i have a single). This summer was really bad for some reason and when I went back to school it got even worse. I finally told a friend and went to see a counselor at school, even though I already was seeing a psychologist and psychiatrist, I just needed someone to tell about my suicide. To make a long story short, I ended up in the hospital for a week which led my doc to see that it was more OCD than suicide, which I guess is good. It has been two weeks since I have been home (I am currently living at home since I go to school only 20 minutes away) and I am freaking out about going back to school because I still feel a little suicidal. Has anyone else ever been suicidal? I really need someone to talk to about this serious matter and I am scared to tell anyone else because I am afraid that I will end up in the hospital. Please, i need some help. (I want to make clear that I am just having thoughts, I have no plan of killing myself).