Hi there.....I am so sorry you are hurting. Just know you are not alone and that life is going have many ups and downs. There will be days you feel great and happy and there will be days you don't feel that way at all. It sounds like you are on the right track by keeping busy with art, reading, guitar and going to appointments. The meds could be some of the issue. You might want to contact your prescribing doctor to see if they can tweak it or try you on something else. Human connection is a very important part of getting through your struggles. Connect with people and friends and try not to spend too much time alone.

Most breakups are sad events. Killing yourself over one is WAY over the top. If that was justified, there would not be anyone still living.

I have been through a few ... and you THINK you are going to or would rather die. This is true for MOST everyone. All I can tell you is give it time and DO NOT HARM YOURSELF (or anyone else) ..... EVER.

Sorry about your breakup ... but I speak the truth. Don't be foolish.

I understand what you are going through, I went through the same at your age, and trust me, it will get better. Love yourself and don't think this is the end of the world because it isn't. You are young and with bright future ahead of you. Right now you may think this person was your life but with time you will realize your suffering wasn't worth it. Stay strong and stay busy to keep things off your head. Having faith will give you strength to keep going. Life is beautiful and these situations are part of learning.

I get where you're coming from, my one and only real suicide attempt was over the same thing, only I was 17. imagine that, 17 and I didn't realize my life was just beginning. I been through several several more break ups, some with me as the leaver and some with the other person at the leaver. I don't even bother dating anymore, I've become a recluse, I'm just tired of all the effort that's put into a relationship, just to have it flushed down the drain, and that includes with friends, over something as simple as me raising my voice. I did not yell, I just raised my voice. so yeah I've got to keep people at a distance.

Hi Jess. I like to read and I like art too. I'm sorry you are in a rough circumstance. I am struggling very much as well. Message me, I would love to see your art.
Blessings

Hugs... sorry it has been so hard for you.. breakup is hard for any kind of relationship. And I’m sorry that you are going through pain physically too. Do you have suicidal thoughts before your depression meds or after you are on them?? Some depression med do cause suicidal. Besides takin meds, does your doctor recommend any form of therapy? Using therapy and meds, sometimes you can see the results slightly faster, though again it depends on individual. Have a word with your doc and see what other remedies that are available to help you cope. Don’t have to stick to med. Good to have some options. Take care and I’m keeping you in my prayer. God bless!