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b_happy 12/08/2016

Okay. So, for the sake of my health I decided to transfer to a college back in my home state to be close with my family. I struggled a lot with my grandma passing away and was about to continue my college in the state I was working in over the summer. I've been close friends with the people here and love working with them. That's the part that makes me genuinely happy here, but I'm still hurting. So, I'd be going back home and continuing college there, but I'd have to rent a place which would require leasing for a year. If I want to come back to this state in the summer I'd have to pay rent both there and here. Also, I'd be starting a job at a hospital back home. If I went back to this state to work in the summer I'd be losing that job that pays $2 more on the hour. It's a matter of doing what makes me happy or doing what will be financially capable for me and better for my long term in sense of living circumstances. None of this probably made sense, but I just don't know what to do and I can't bare the thought of being financially okay and miserable rather than losing a job, struggling with bills, and being with people I care about. I just don't know. And my mom is supportive, but she thinks one idea is smarter than the other and it gives me anxiety thinking I could really screw myself over long term just by taking the choice of what makes me happy... If this made any sense, could you please give me advice here?

Nev 12/09/2016

I see your point...is there any chance that your mom or people you are close in your family come and stay with you? I guess you need company now, so if you will be better financially getting the new job, you could have people from your family spending some time with you, until you can recover from your loss, if that is the reason why you think about going back...but if that is not possible, and you feel like you really need be around your family you can go back, take your time, you can find another job later...but try the first option if possible

TooMuch 12/09/2016

I think you should follow your gut and do what you think, even in theory, will make you the most happy. There is always an opportunity to do something different in the future if it doesn't work out, but you've got to try for what you truly want.

whatswrong19 12/09/2016

HOpe you can figure this out.

b_happy 12/09/2016

Thank you all. I think if I get stuff figured out with my finances at my college and can find a place I can sub lease I might have part of my problem figured out. Hopefully it comes together soon.

bridgie101 12/09/2016

Don't understand why you have to lease for a year. Do you have room mates where you live? That's what students do here. They 'couch surf' till they find a 'flat' or house, and they rent one room of that house. Often quite casually. Students rent all manner of things including garden sheds that they decorate amazingly and generally have a whale of a time despite being broke AF.

if you walk towards happiness, you will live a happy life. If you walk away from happiness you won't. So always walk towards happiness. And remember there's more than one way to skin a cat. You don't have to lease some place for a year. Go stay with mum and save a few bucks.

b_happy 12/09/2016

Thank you. I should definitely go with where my heart wants to take me. America is great, but it feels like the smallest change in decision can cause me to crumple under financial problems. But my happiness should always come first, and I should just try juggling everything else behind it as best I can. As long as I am where I love to be with the people I love I guess everything else just seems much smaller in comparison.

CynDme78 12/14/2016

I understand what you are saying. You know, when I find myself in a situation that I see way too many alternatives I draw a chart of pluses and minuses

On one side I put the plus' of one choice and then the minuses of that choice.
On the other side I put my other choice along with its pluses and minuses. Then I compare, think of what I really want, and then the choice becomes simple. At least this works for me.
However, mainly I would suggest thinking of what YOU really want out of your life. What are YOUR long term goals and then move toward them.
Good luck and take care.

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