Oh honey, I don't know what you did to hurt your friend and worry them but if they are a real friend they are not going to be better off without you and they will tell you that if you ask them. You didn't ask for depression any more than any of us did. Please do not isolate yourself. Your friends will want to help you. I suggest you apologize to your friend and keep moving forward. Your going to have ups and downs you just have to decide how your going to deal with them. You can pm me if you wanna talk. *hugs*

Helloooo....ummmm have you thought about this? Friends, if they are real friends tend to understand that we have a lot going on and sometimes we say something that we don't necessarily mean or may be a bit too harsh or just hurtful....we don't aim to hurt the ones we love, but brain cells can only function on so many levels at a time and depression takes up a lot of space and reasoning and spacial processing. We're on a very basic human level, very human, we make mistakes.....don't compound the first mistake by making another....don't run from your friends. A sincere apology can go along way. I have a couple very close friends who've made it through my 28 years of BiPolar Disorder with me....at some point near the beginning when I realized that quite frequently I would do something stupid to one or more of these wonderful people, I just sat them down and said, "listen, I get that I'm doing this, I also get that I can't help it, I don't mean to hurt you, I'm doing everything in my power to get this under control so that I don't hurt you....I also don't have the energy to go into a long drawn out explanation each time it happens. If you can't handle it and don't want to deal with me anymore I get it, if you do and our friendship is worth it, I will always apologize for my actions and do my best to limit my stupid mistakes, but know that some of this just isn't under my control....and I love you guys for hanging in with me as long as you can." That blanket pre-explanation, or whatever you want to call it, went a long way in keeping my few close friendships alive and well. Sometimes people just appreciate you making the effort to let them know that you understand how you're affecting them.....

Don't run from your friends, apologize, and give them the benefit of the doubt and let them decide if they can hang in with you. You're human and your doing what you can to make things right, that's all anyone can expect of you....if they tell you different or can't handle it then that's not a friendship that can work out.

Hang in there and take care,
Kat

I had to do this too but make sure you still have someone to talk to like a counselor or therapy group because it will hurt you to keep to yourself as well.

In a sense I agree with the above statment about appologizing. Also if they are your friend they will hang by your side no matter what. My other half and I have an understanding we both have our days and we understand that. I love what Mom2girlies said and she nailed it. We did not ask for all these problems. We are just hardwired differently and the world can shove it if they dont like it. One of the greatest things I ever had happen was in college a few years ago. I have a Service Dog for my PTSD and a student said I wish I could have a Service Dog I could do this with. I told her, Okay so youre telling me you want anxiety and panic attacks that are nonstop. Suicidal depression. Anxiety around anyone or anything. The feeling something bad is going to happen all the time. The nightmares where you sit straight up covered in sweat unable to breathe. The flashbacks to this moment. The list goes on and on. Still want a Service Dog? She said she just wanted to bring her dog places. I informed her under thr ADA that is illegal. Anyhoo enough ranting for me