I'm sorry to hear that but if you ever want to talk, I'm free. You can message me anytime.

I've been BiPolar and suffered with crippling bouts of Depression for 28 yrs. now. I've done every therapy there is, taken every psych med there is, and finally got so bad in 2010 I had to do 3 cycles of ECT (electric shock therapy) to get myself back to "me". My depression had gotten so bad that I couldn't find a way out of the darkness, I'd lay in bed all day with bottle of pills laying beside me.....it took my then 19 yr old son convincing me to check myself into a Psych Hospital instead of making a stupid decision like suicide. I was there for 3 months and that's where I started ECT and finished it outpatient.

I hope that your seeing Professional help for your depression, I hope that they are teaching you coping skills and ways to manage your panic attacks through breathing exercises and relaxation exercises. If not perhaps it's time to change Psychiatrists or get a Psychiatrist.

I know that it feels like there's no point and no reason to keep going....but there's always a reason. Through your life you affect people in a positive manner that you most likely don't even realize. You have family and friends that would be devastated if you weren't here anymore. And I know it's so hard to make yourself do things that seem impossible, but you have to try. Try to get up in the morning and shower, try to eat 2 or 3 small meals a day, try to get outside in the Sunshine (natural Vit. D) and take a couple of short walks each day. Try to connect with someone even if its just a friend on the computer. I get that these things can seem impossible at times, but it you set a routine for the day, and you make yourself follow that routine day by day, as hard as it can be, after a few days you'll notice its easier, then a few more days and it's easier and so on. You force yourself to do the good things for yourself that you need until it doesn't feel like your forcing it.

If your not seeing a Therapist or Psychiatrist, please do and see them for treatment.

Take care,
Kat

I am sorry for what you are going through. Are you seeing a professional doctor and.or therapist? If not, I would recommend seeing a psychiatrist who can refer you to a therapist. They can help you to find out why you are feeling this way and they can offer coping skills to get you through this difficult time.

Hang on there. Don't give up. I lost my son to suicide almost a month now and i'm having a hard time coping. I wish there was something i had done to save my son, but it was too late when we found out. We thought he was just tired because of the nature of his work. He never complained to us about his work either. He was reserved type of person. HadI known he's undergoing something that is not an ordinary stress, we could have saved him. So please, do not hesitate to tell your parents or close friend all your fears. They say depression is a hard enemy because it is the monster in your head that you have to deal everyday, but tell youself that you are stronger than thatmonster. I hope you find strength in every passing day that you survived your ordeal. I will pray for you. Just live.