i just got through texting my wife a bit and one thing i said was that i miss going out to the movies with her, because she mentioned going to see a movie and she said you never liked those movies, and i told her neither did you and then she said her best friend wanted to go see it, so i said i missed going places with her and her response was i bet so being stuck at the house, and i told her yes, but i miss things with you, even if it was a walmart run and she said i need to make friends, i told her, do you really think thats a substitute for you and then she said it would help the loneliness... to which i said not the kind i have, i guess yoou dont get me, goodnight and she replied with...night
so i feel like worthless replacable shit.....if i can say that on here, i feel like a roaches pile of shit.
Sorry I already posted today... but I have done a little bit of drawing after my exam since I have been in and out of some nasty flashbacks this morning. Trying to keep my mind busy... reminding myself there is nothing wrong with the shoes I walk in. They are unique to me and that is okay.
something new is occurring and I’m not sure how to discribe it. The only thing that comes to mind is that the now is bending into moments of the past and than bending back to the now. It is not a flashback the way I am used to having them. Its like I will be in the now and having a conversation with someone and out of the blue without a trigger the moment will bend for a moment and I will see...