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Slept the day away

bagofnopes
bagofnopes

Suicidal thoughts got in bed with me last night and kept me awake until the early morning hours. I've slept all day and now I'm ashamed to be around my family now that I'm awake. I think they understand it's the depression but I still feel like they think I'm not trying hard enough. If they only knew how terrible last night was for me.  I can't tell them. I don't want to scare them. 

bridgie101
bridgie101
What's done is done, what's been is gone. Forget it.

Today's a new day. What'll you do today?

If you feel they think you're not trying hard enough, you need to go and ask. We carry as burdens those fears we don't confront. We can think they think all manner of things, but we don't know what they think unless we ask. So ask.
bagofnopes
bagofnopes
Thanks for your reply. I didn't ask them that but I did tell my Mom I'm tired of feeling this way and I was in obvious distress and it was met with silence. My anxiety was too high to say anything else. I just got up and walked out. My mom does not understand emotional support and she's the only person around most days so I hide in my room and get more depressed. The anxiety that comes with trying to talk to her just isn't worth it.
bagofnopes
bagofnopes
The hardest part is the she has depression and anxiety too. But she is medicated and mostly stable with hers. So I know she knows what I'm going through but she doesn't reach out or provide any comfort.
bridgie101
bridgie101
Sounds like her drugs are too strong. You don't need her mind, which may not be working. You need her love. Try and get hugs. One hug is worth 1 hr's attempt at wurdz.
bagofnopes
bagofnopes
Hugs aren't a thing in my family. My parents are emotionally bankrupt
bagofnopes
bagofnopes
I'm just now coming down from an anxiety attack after the parents tried to take me to get dinner but want me to go out in public. We were ready to leave and I had borrowed the car key and left it in my purse so Dad didn't know where it was and yelled at me "where's the car key?!" I cried my way to get it and just broke down and couldn't go after that. She still tried to ask me through my sobs what I wanted from the drive thru. I couldn't respond with words and finally just asked her to leave me alone. It's worth noting that she does not speak kindly at all when talking to me even though she knows I'm in pain. If I had a broken leg, things would be much different.
Lantawood
Lantawood
I can relate to the "they don't think I'm trying hard enough" so well. Although I don't know for a fact, I'm starting to believe I'm perceived that way. Depression is crippling. It takes away my appetite, motivation, or interest in the simplest of things.