Hugs sweet milly and so sorry about the depression - I can only shake mine with meds so not sure about any other tips xx

Guess im just gonna have to fight it off hun but its so hard right now. Thank you so much for caring though it means so much. xxxx

Dont mean to be funny, honest, but im feeling so down at the moment and this site was once my lifeline where i thought i had support and friends. Well ive had four people show concern for me and i guess i dont deserve any more as i havent been her for you guys much lately. Jazz, Azure, KCJ and Monkeyrasher are the only ones that appear to care what happens to me so forgive me if i delete the rest of my 'so called friends'. Ok so im being a bit dramatic but nobody will bother to read this anyway so i guess im talking to myself (just for a change)

Milly- I feel exactly the same way that you do. There are unfortunately ( I have found ) a lot of caring people here that are just not online when you need them. There are also some really compassionate people here that like all of us, begin to feel very down to the point that they just don't have it in them to respond much. And yes- I have also seen fun & games posts that get many replies from a certain group of people.....while at the same time, a post from someone in need goes completely unnoticed. It is very frustrating to say the least. I have learned to simply not post up much and only reply when I believe that I can relate or have some meaningful advice or support to share. Please realize these things and know that there are indeed some people here that care for you and what you are going through

The ways that I try to "shake that feeling" myself, is to talk, write journals, and try to get motivated to do things/ activities/ chores/ goals/ etc. I find that when I take the time to get things done, that my mind doesn't work overtime on the depression. A trip to the store or the park to walk the dog, can do wonders to get me a little more positive. It doesn't always last long, so I try to do these kinds of things everyday. I also try to keep things in perspective by counting my blessings as they say. I will always realize that as bed as things are ( or have been ) for me, that they could indeed be worse.

Please take care and I hope that you may at least temporarily get to feeling a bit better.

Hugs Milly. I have had to do the same to my friends list. Very little support by some people who showed support to others. I got tired of it and removed people who didn't talk much to me anymore or view journals and even people who I kept sending hugs to and getting no response. Sometimes you just have to do it. I also haven't noticed any new journals from you so it is hard to know when things change in people, I do check and I know I have send some hugs here and there but I am not on much now due to planning my wedding. I hope your sadness goes away soon hugs xo.

Anthony honey thank you so much for your helpful reply its much appreciated. I know these things happen on here and i think when i so feel a bit better i will indeed feel ashamed of myself for my selfish outburst. Thank you honey i guess i was just reaching out in the dark and the helpful hands just didnt seem to grab mine.
Heeley honey i know its hard to read peoples minds and i havent really been here much myself either so i can relate to what you are saying. I think as i said to Anthony i am so down ive hit the 'poor little me, nobody cares stage' and i think we both know that is normally followed by angry outbursts and selfish behaviour that includes trying to hurt those that we love. Love and best wishes to you honey and im sure this will pass. xxxx

Jeez Milly! How dare you think you're not worth our help!!!! I just read this, and it made me sad, because you're always there for others. I think sometimes that when someone who has always been strong shows sign of any weakness, we don't know how to deal with it. You have always been such a comforting presence on the boards, and for me I thought "What can I say?" Well, I had a think, and this is what I thought.
A wise woman, (well several actually) said to me live in the now! When you wash your hands, take time to enjoy the changes in the temperature of the water, the fragrance of the soap. Take time to close your eyes, breathe in the good smells, smile, just be. Take time to be you. Think about what emotions are making you feel so bad. Write them down. Think about them. Why are they so important?
I don't know where this is coming from, but I feel like you need space to just be, to take some time to feel and not be afraid of those feelings. Feelings are emotions, and we can deal with them.
Depression is a total pain in the arse. No one knows that like your fellow saddoe! Rest, relax into that feeling then look at how you can challenge it. You are such a valuable member of our community. Healing will come, but you have to give yourself space and time.
xox Julia

What makes you raff out roud? Use anything you have at home to tickle your funny bone. Those chemical mood fluctuations are a nightmare.

Hugs to you honey...

I care sorry i aint been around lately hun.x
im always here

Nothing about any of your posts has ever seemed selfish. Please remember that we are only human,and there are a lot of pent-up feelings that can come out when someone is depressed and/ or in need. I doubt that anyone else here feels as though your feelings are selfish either. Please take care. [hugs]

Juice, Rosie thank you so much. I dont really know what brought this on again but i know you guys have all been there and thats why i love you all so much. And Anthony i meant it when i said you are a real asset to the boards. God i love you guys.

we love you too hunnie.:)
x

Milly, my darling friend,

I was just having this conversation with another person yesterday, it was about this very thing. Anthony and Juice have it totally right!

Take notice of tiny, positive things. Just one little thing at a time. The taste of chocolate, the color of your child's eyes in sunlight...the way the sky changes, all the shades of blue, which birds are around again with the warmer weather returning...take note of them, write them down somewhere, keep that journal, ...and pretty soon, all those "little" positives become ALOT of positives, and you will see how beautiful life is, again. I already knew this, but it never hurts to be reminded.

I understand so well how you are feeling...am battling that very feeling myself!

Milly Milly.. I have missed you. I havent been on much and this damn computer takes like five minutes for me to even get to the depression board, then another five minutes to leave a comment, another five minutes to get to another thread etc etc etc.. Anyone else with this problem.

Anyway, I really truly have missed you and am so sorry that you are so down. I hope that you fight it off with all your might and feel alot better soon. I love your picture you little doll. Hugs and love. Y'Vonne