Hi I hope things get better for you. If you ever need to talk I am here to listen .

I think i have helped many people here. Keep reaching out for help.

What seems to be the problem? I find life to be tougher everyday. My friends know how I am and still like to push my buttons. My family is either inconsiderate or in the same boat as me. Everything is like a circle of misery. Monday is ugh not again. Tuesday is like ok can’t be worse than yesterday. Wednesday is ok almost there and still can’t be worse than yesterday. Thursday’s seem to be the best like ok almost there it wasn’t that bad today. Friday is like ok now I can shut my brain down for the weekend. Saturday is why can’t I shut my brain down, I have nothing to do but worry and stress out. Sunday is the same thing as Saturday but the later it gets the more I dread another week of nonsense. Stay up late late worrying with anxiety, sleep till noon and do it all over again. There’s that minute or two when I first get up and there’s no messages on my phone from work. It’s the best feeling in the world, that time when you wake up to peace and quiet right before your brain starts remembering everything that’s wrong. I’m in it with you. Feel free to message me anytime.

I cry because of my pain. When I was severely abuses back in 2012 i almost died. I longed for a better life was i kidding myself? The pain is bad. Most of my life has been abuse put downa rejection etc get told it's my fault or im a drama queen. Alllll i want is to be happy or have i got used to the pain like my parents i just want answers

I will help you anytime you would like. My life has not been easy at all and I have had many issues from Cancer to Depression. I've also had trouble with siblings because my family in basically is dysfunctional which added to my depression which few of them understood. Now they want to see me and miss me, but I've sort of had it with them. Mom and Dad have passed. I'm married but it's hardly what I thought and hoped it would be. The best part of my life is my precious "Boxer" who is the love of my life, but she is getting older and she and I so so close to each other. I stopped writing on here because without being able to see people I sometimes find it hard, but I am here for you and I am real! If you want to tell me your issues I will certainly try to help in any way possible and I do most certainly care more than you know. Your friend if you like. God Bless you.

"severely abuses back in 2012" .... sounds like possible PTSD. Have you had an evaluation to find out? I think you need an evaluation and treatment from the medical/mental health profession. That is what I needed ... and it worked.

I dont want to die i just want a better life

Hey I'm sorry your not feeling well . I want a better life too . And I definitely feel like nobody can help me but me myself . Sad to say but true . I want to die I said this many times sometimes I ask myself why am I still alive other people who wants to live longer dies in front of me ? Why ?
It's just the life is not fair it sucks
It's like being unseen by someone you say hi they say nothing at all or just greet you bye
Except I'm being unseen by everyone.

We want to help but don't always know how. I'm glad you don't want to die. There's so much to live for. I'm sorry for the pain. We all carry it around although we can get better at managing it, not letting it consume us or dictate out lives. It can be our teacher and make us kinder to others. I pray you find this kind of peace.