Hey Sirwhytesnake. Is there anyone you're seeing right now for help at all? If not, is it an option? You're in a really awful state right now and I'm so sorry for what you're going through. People of DailyStrength either are or have been in similar states, so I want to say you aren't alone. Sending you hugs.

No I am not seeing anyone they will just throw tablets at me like im a guinea pig.

If you're goign to do this the hard way, i recommend going to bed when you feel alone.

Most people associate being in bed with being alone, or at least if not they generally accept the idea; and so being alone in bed doesn't generally make people lonely per se.

So it's a kind of good place to go to go into stasis while your body processes whatever chemical soup is bringing you down.

And you can get R&R and come out feeling more energetic.

I find depression associates a lot with tiredness. Getting good rest can really help you get through an episode and out the other side.

what do you think?

Honestly I feel I can only really get tired when im in my living room I toss and turn a lot in bed.

Would you consider talking with a therapist? I have struggled with depression and anxiety since I was a child.

As have I. I've been working long weeks I really have no time for a therapist. Although im worried il breakdown and have no job then

Can you get a dog?

Yeah you don't have to go to bed to sleep. You go to bed to suffer. to feel less lonely. To handle bad times. to process bad emotion. That's how girls use it.

Maybe just go to the gym then. Work out your stuff on the machines. Keep going and you'll eventually feel like part of the furniture.

Can't get a dog peter I have no garden and it would be left alone whilst working . I was a big gym fanatic in the past just haven't had the time at work although I will go for a swim maybe one a
Day a week

You mentioned that you don't have time to see a therapist. Is it possible for you to use your lunchtime to see a therapist provided they are close to where you work?

U aren't alone. It u should def make time to see someone. And not all doctors just throw tablets at u. Some doctors actually listen and some people actually need those tablets to function in daily life. Sometimes the fight w depression and anxiety is too great and we need a helping hand even if it's temporary

I'm here if you need someone to talk to I'm just at a lost as well I'm frustrated I've already cried once cause I, so,frustrated I just don't know

Hey man, don't feel like you don't have time for a therapist, not a psychiatrist but a counselor and be open with them. Do not limit yourself to the things you let them know. Be descriptive, I once told a counselor that I was feeling as if my butthole was having spasms because I was so nervous and we both laughed at the detail but the point is to get to the root of what you feel.

You aren't alone, there are groups out there, at least once a day sit down or lay down and listen to a guided meditation from you tube and just listen to it and stay where you are regardless of how uncomfortable it may be. When you get through it you'll feel a little better but it does take repetition and time so do not lose patience. It took a lot of time for your anxiety and your body to make these patterns of anxiety and so it will take time to remove them and add new ones that will better you. You're never alone man, pray. That feeling you get when you think you can't anymore and somehow you do, that is God and he is inside you and around you. Be confident in the fact that he is there for you and will not let go of you. Listen to your true self, if you are attached to your ways and feel hesitant to make an effort to feel God then you are not alone we all feel that but release those ways and give yourself and your anxieties to God. He will take them, allow him to take over and he will be your Guide. Sounds cheesy man but it i true, most things we have no control over, and those are the things that give us anxiety so give those things to God. Don't think of him as a christian God or a Muslim God or a many Gods, he is not of human identity, he is in you and he will take this burden.

One more suggestion, check out some comedy, I like listening to Joey Diaz and Theo Von, they talk about life and make great jokes and suggestions on how to live your life. It is a little overboard at times and not for everyone but it works for me.

I am struggling too and you are most definitely not alone. I try to keep going and put one foot in front of the other everyday and it is not always easy. The one thing I know for sure is that I have to go to work and do my job properly because if I lost my job things will get much worse. So on the days I feel overwhelmed or down I at the very least tell myself I have to get up for work and get through the work day. Anything above and beyond that some days is too hard for me but I cannot give in to it as I have responsibilities which we all do. I think the key is knowing you are not alone and that others struggle too. I also think that you being here and reaching out is a positive step. None of this will go away over night and it will continue to be a struggle but there is help. I came here for support because I cannot afford therapy at this time but know I need support to get through this. Hope things get better for you!

Joining some type of social group, whatever it might be, could be helpful. It doesn't even need to be focused on depression...just getting into the world more helps. Volunteering is great...are there local charities that you could volunteer at?

Please keep us updated about how you're doing.