i would be more than happy to talk to you. what is wrong? why do u feel like u are about to do somthing stupid? please p m me.

Hey i'd love to chat to you, i've been really stupid myself and its got me into this terrible state so i know how you feel.

But we are all humans, we all do stupid things sometimes and make mistakes and there is no reason that we should not be able to learn to forgive ourselves.

If you want to chat let me know, i'd also love the chance to talk to someone who is going through a hard time and get some weight of my chest.

Im getting worse and worse

Your not alone here for you.
(((Hugs))).

You can call your local crisis call center. Check your local phone book or use directory assistance.
That might help you.Or if you are religious call your pastor or another leader in your church.
You can also call your local hospital ER if you feel you are at the point of doing something dangerous or call 911.
I am sorry you are hurting.
Know that you are not alone.

I havent called anyone yet...not sure how I myself will respond to wanting the help...what if I call and then I want to reject the help

Im sorry for what ur feeling. Im not sure what state ur in but u can probably call a 211 info line and there is usually someone to just talk to you. Ive done that before & it helps. Please do not do anything to urself. I know its hard to accept help but u really need to so you dont continue to feel this way. Like others mentioned you may want to call a priest or pastor. (if ur religous) sometimes just going & sitting in a church & praying. God loves u. Im praying for u & here if u want to talk...(((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))

I dont think they have a 211 number in the state of Iowa that I can call

you can look up in phone book or call 911 or call hospital they will help u.

Alyena, yes Iowa does have 211. You can also call 1 800 SUICIDE, 1 800 273 TALK, Crisischat.org, and many others. There is a big page for your state. Google Iowa suicide hotline.
This happened to me once too, I was drinking and felt suicidal. Deep down I didn't really think I could do it, but I knew I needed serious help. I called 211 and got the number for my local psych center (the ones where police and doctors send people for voluntary and involuntary evaluations). I called that center and talked with the admissions lady. I told her about my problems and that I felt suicidal. She talked with me and told me to come in or call the police (to bring me in). I ended up driving there in the middle of the night. I was eventually admitted and looking back, it was the best thing I did at that time! I didn't like it at first, but after I put down my guard and started participating, it helped me. When it's urgent, and life is on the line, then the stay becomes involuntary and it's a locked unit. Otherwise, if you need to talk, call one of those numbers, family, friends, or clergy. Please update us.

I just noticed too that there are many hotlines, including teen hotline, etc. listed if you just click "help" in the upper right corner and click on "crisis" on that help page. It lists everything!

luv2dive - what page are u talking about

Reaching out for help isn't a bad idea. It's always better to look for help BEFORE you do something that you will regret instead of during. It's also not a bad idea to spend a couple weeks in a hospital. I've done it. Just think, a year ago, today, you joined this group. You have been persevering that long! Go another year! Show the world who's boss!

Im doing worse now...Ive been self-harming and I have been thinking about taking some pills...I just cant seem to get better

That is why you need to call for help, or go to the ER. You say you're getting worse - the time to get help is NOW, before things get any worse than they are.