I can't do this anymore I've tried everything but nothing is workinf im just dead inside like the life is jsut gone out of me ore light whatever. Im so miserable and it just feels like I'd be better off leaving this so called world. The only person that holds me up is my boyfriend but even still its quite difficult hes trying too get me too move in with him which would be the best thing for me. The thing is that requires for me too move hella far from my family which would be for the best hopefully by next month things will work out.
4 months total abstinence now. The last week I have been getting a lot of urges and feeling sexually charged at times. Feeling like I need a release and getting mild urges to watch porn again. I came to a realisation that I don't miss porn. I miss the effect porn used to have on me. Truth is for 6 months prior to quitting it had been doing absolutely nothing for me. Maybe it was shifting...