Depression Support Group
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Lately I have been thinking I need to think more positive which as you all know is hard when you are depressed. It would be easier if positive things happened to me. I pray and pray for a miracle. I couldn't sleep last night and found that book "The Secret" and was reading it. It seems to me they are saying that if you let one negative thought in your head then it doesn't work. I have tried to be positive ever since I was a child when I was bullied and went out of my way to befriend the bullies. I would even buy them candy that they would say Thanks and just bully me again. I think all positivity went out of my life when my fiance died. So how can the Universe make that up to me. I am looking for a job and full of self doubt not just my own but everyone else's who tell me there are no jobs. My life has been about one disaster after another. Some people said after my fiance died that good things will happen, that things will get better but it is just one thing after another.
I will finish the book again and try to be more positive. I read it a while ago and I remember thinking that something good would happen and tried my best and it seems like I was rewarded with more bad stuff. It is like a new day but same old crap everyday. Is it asking too much for one good thing to make me less fearful and make it just a bit easier?
QP
I will finish the book again and try to be more positive. I read it a while ago and I remember thinking that something good would happen and tried my best and it seems like I was rewarded with more bad stuff. It is like a new day but same old crap everyday. Is it asking too much for one good thing to make me less fearful and make it just a bit easier?
QP
I think it is ironic that I get the bright idea to try and think positive and then everything happened at once.
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I know things look and feel bad, but you have so much more than you know.
Today is a really bad day for me physically, I have a condition called cyclic vomiting syndrome. I vomit a week a month, every month. I vomit sometimes until I pass out. I know that sounds horrible and it is, but it's also taught me a lot too. I am more openminded about people who are different and more patient. I am thankful for the three weeks a month I have symptom free,they're like a vacation :)
I could list all the bad things in my life and justify my suicide attempt, because my life is horrible as a whole, even before birth. But I focus on the good things, because without them...I have no reason to suffer through my CVS every month. I have the thought of those three good weeks to get me through the one bad one.
I'm not belittling your struggles, just giving you pause to count your blessings. I hope your medication will calm some of your worries and afford you the clarity to see your positives.
The brain seems either pre-programmed or it has learned environmentally to slide towards negative thinking but it seems to be more to it than just changing your thoughts. Check out a book or books by Richard Carlson esp you can be happy no matter what...it's a good read that has more info in the first chapter than the secret in it's entirety.
Peace
Sweatingbullets, I am gonna buy that book. I have a $25 gift cert to Barnes and Noble which is good because I am broke. The Secret did have some advice that HellsBelle was saying to have a Gratitude Journal. I do journalling but most of the time I am just reiterating my problems that day so I will try to look at the good. I agree that more research should be done on depression. I hate to go back on meds but I am in such a bed place that I need something. I think the worry and anxiety is worse that the depression tight now. I am looking forward to reading that book. Thanks.
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