i have deleted part of my profile and i'm in process of deleting the rest of it... i don't need to be here anymore- i will get close to people and they will leave me or die and then i'll be all alone again- so might as well plan my own death so i don't have to be here when they leave me... nobody can love me and nobody will convince me otherwise- i'm always the "good friend" but i'm always too young and not blonde- so i guess i'm going to hell cause i can't take living in a world without him and i know i'll sit and wait for him forever......my life is a spiraling black hole and i just want to end it..... i want these tears to stop and my heart to stop wanting what it can't have- but it won't.... i am tortured .... i just don't know how much more i can take....... i love u all and i'm very sorry.......
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