I don't know what to do and would love your thoughts. I have been severely depressed for a while. Not to the point that I would do anything about it, it's just that low, motivationless feeling. I'm also going through a big family change, overcoming an eating disorder for which I am in treatment, and I also struggle with the usual, other suspects: anxiety and O.C.D. My doctor wants to put me back on Wellbutrin and an S.S.R.I. When I told my girlfriend of 2 years this, because I guess I figured I should be honest with her about what I do with my lifestyle, she, to my surprise, didn't take it well. She told me that she worried I'd been on too many psychotropic drugs in my life (I have been on a handful of anti-depressents since I was a teen, mostly because I was treated inpatient a few times) and she worries it will in the long-term affect my health. I thought about just taking them anyway and not telling her, but I decided that would be wrong. Way wrong and I just want to be honest with her but I am struggling a lot with my mental health. I also worry she'll leave me if she sees the pathetic person I am, which is someone who can't be normal without a cocktail of drugs. I will be normal, I hope... but for now they are suggesting I take them. I have listened to her about several things regarding my recovery. She thought I should work less, so I did. I thought she was right, perhaps about this, so I could focus on my treatment. She thought I should see less of my crazy boundariless friends (definitely right). But, this I don;t know about. Thoughts?
Just writing this I feel a little down on myself. Wish I were someone else!
Tapering is the only option for me and I have my families support but information online is so vague. I seem to have the choice of doing it in days or the other extreme is weeks.I am in my sixties and have drank every day for 18 years on average 15 units (bottle and a half of red wine) spread out over 6/8 hours. I am quite petite but force myself to eat healthily. I am desperate to do this asap....
Does anyone have any ideas on how to feel less lonely with this whole quarantine?