I still love that fighing spirit! Be safe,

Okay so I'm famous for being very "say it like it is" and not being the fluffy type.....I don't mean this in a mean way, but here's the deal....

It's a bit of a copout to use having to keep your partner healthy as part of the reason you let your meds run out and let yourself run down. The thing is, no matter what your living situation is, YOU are your first priority to keep healthy and the depression managed. Your partner needs to keep their own-selves healthy. It is very commendable that you realized how bad the situation was and agreed to go inpatient and get re-stabilized on meds, and it's great that your feeling better now....but you do need to make yourself a priority and make sure that your taking care of yourself and keeping your meds on track, cuz dude their ain't nobody else that's gonna do it, ya know.

Take care.

Love that tell it like it is. Yep indeed it was a silly thing to let happen. But also in the midst of depression. Silly is not out of the realm of probability. Other things were in the mix as well. Things like taking a job that made unGodly demands on my sleep wake cycle. But it did let me prove to myself I could tolerate picking up very thoroughly decomposed bodies with the best of them. Yep in the midst of trying to cope with depression. I took a job hoping to make enough money to pay the bills. And it really did involve collect bodies for funeral homes and the medical examiners in two counties. Of course none of this happened till after I retired from 23 years of working to support a family while enduring depression. I did that by working 12 hour rotating shifts at a power plant. By rotating I mean days for a few shifts. Then a couple days off. Following that I immediately went to nights. So it was either do this job or fail as a provider for my family. And all while keeping depression at bay. Soooo
me copping out occasionally might just have to be what happens. Yeah it ain't the best. But it ain't killed me yet either. So you are welcome to be whatever you wish. And I'll be that guy that tries to make the most of your best wishes. Thanks for the straight talk. Please feel free to add what you wish. All the best to you.

Your prickly....

I hear you and I do get it. I've been BiPolar for 28 years, I was married to a functioning alcoholic for 24 years who never held a job for more than 6 months, if that. So between being BiPolar and having to keep that Stable, I also have multiple Chronic Illnesses/Diseases, Chronic Pain to manage, I've had 30 Surgeries in the last 19 years, I take 22 meds a day.....and while dealing with all that I managed my 12 years at University, racked up 2 Bachelors and a Ph.D, because I knew I would always be the one who would have to be the money make in my family....I had 2 sons who I would do whatever the hell it took to make sure they didn't grow up in any way like I had to.

So I totally get how hard it can be to keep things in check so your mental illnesses stays managed and you stay healthy, and you've had a lot of balls in the air. And how you choose to manage or not manage your illness is your problem, not mine. I was just offering an opinion, because if you don't take care of you, there's no way you can be well enough to take care of your partner.

I sincerely do wish you well and hope things stay stable for you.

Take care,
Kat

Hope it did not come across too harsh. You see it is good to vent. And it seemed like I had an opportunity. I must say it is refreshing to find someone that gives as good as they get. And please always express your opinion on my posts whenever you feel like doing so. This ole Florida boy needs to still learn a few lessons. Your are indeed someone I can learn something from. So please know that I was just giving a little bit back. Nothing you wrote caused me any great discomfort. It did give me pause and a smile though. I sincerely hope to hear from you again.