You are worthy. You are important. Put the past behind you. I know it's.easy to get caught in the past and feeling those.feelings however....the past is the past. I have as of late been looking outside.myself and trying to be my own support. I ask myself would I want someone saying those.begative things to me....absolutely not! I've also made a point to smile on the way to work. I didn't realize how little I smiled. I constantly have this conflicted.look on my face. I hope.this.helps or maybe I've said too much but just know we are here to listen!

Do you want to talk to them to find out why this all happened? Like getting closure and an understanding?

Yes, But they will not Listen. Malor PTSD issues, And VERY VERY religious.........So, You say something or ask them about it, they think Your judging their son. You know "Juge not, less thee be judged.

But, I am not Judging them, I know him And I have issues myself (Physical) Judging him, would be a pre-conception of him before getting to know him

And I know I need to forget about this nonsense........And get out of my head.

My fear is now (started thinking about this) They live in Lancaster Now, I'm starting to they might be doing/did this to another family.

Big hug guitarman...So much is out of our control when we're young and it sure can pack a punch

You are worthy ...This father was wrong to talk to you like that

I don't know what it was all about but you feel the way that you feel

Back then you thought as a child and it sounds like that inner child still hurts

Maybe you can write them a letter expressing your feelings and anything else you want to say. Then destroy it, throw it away or keep it. Just get all your feelings out. They will never read it. Maybe it will help you to let go. I'm sorry they hurt you.

You are worthy in all respect, don't overthink. Focus on your present moment and cherish the gifts and blessings you have. I would recommend that you go out and socialise with your friends, indulge in your hobby, read mental health blogs ( I read at : your mental health pal) . You can also go see a therapist if you are feeling a bit too overwhelmed . Lastly, don't lose hope, everything will get better soon.

Suncloud, It was wrong of the father to do that, His son just wanted a little brother so bad, I don't know if they have talked to him about it, to try make him understand.
you've worked in the mental-health field right?
You know You have to go along with their delusions.
That was wrong of the father to do.
I also think.......he knew his son would react that way, temper tantrums gloating......ETC. And kept on getting me job's, So I would forget about all this, and didn't say anything, so he wouldn't get introuble.

And Your right my inner child is still hurting.




Kiwasicu, Can't even wright a letter, His sister even said on Facebook "keep You discomfort to Yourself" Everyone is protecting him, Even my own mother
The father groomed his daughter, AND I know Was groomed, Cause I friended the guy on Facebook I got a message on chat telling me how well his son was doing (not sure if it's grooming or what) but said: If he had a business I would be first man he would hire.

I was always a huge deal to him.

So finally, thinking about, These people aren't really active on facebook......I un-friended the father and his daughter, thinking it alleviate the anxiety,

I know I need to let it go....And did for 30-some years, But ever since his sister (we were friends on facebook for 15 years) Just 4 year's ago........."can he post?" Like she was asking my mother.

I stumbled on to an earlier post, where she called me by my name, David, So, I think that's kind of odd.

abhimanyu: I am trying to look past this, I am doing anything I can to forget about this.
I am trying to educate myself on the subject,
Playing guitar and enjoying life, I still see scenarios in my mind, But working on it


Thanks everyone for listening!.

Kiwasicu.

I Missunderstood Your post, I thought You meant, wright a letter and send it to them. I re-read You post, Wright a letter and set on fire. cool I will try that.

I have posted about this damn thing so much, I must sound like a broken record.

I am a little confused about the details, but it sounds like PTSD. I have PTSD. I have done EMDR therapy and recently did intensive outpatient, as well as inpatient.. I still have anxiety "attacks' whenever the trigger comes, but it is way better now-the anxiety is less. I also regularly do mindfulness meditation. Just keep pursuing therapy. It doesn't ever go away, it just lessens in intensity is all. I have a lot of trouble sleeping too. I think it goes with the territory.

Mars.
It is PTSD, I have read about it.
The family is avoiding us, And I am avoiding them.

My Mother is friend's with their daughter on Facebook, and has made comment's on her kids, And her brother,,,,,,Who is mentally Ill, She has never liked the comments, or said thank You.

So, she is avoiding us, And has become very distant.

Her Brother has always been confused on things, Like Being humble, He thought since he was older then me, He shouldn't have to be humble but I should.........Didn't understand what setting a good example really meant.

I was over at his house often when I was a kid, He got confused.....And thought him and I were really related, that's how bad he wanted a little brother.
I am sorry U are dealing with PTSD, So am I, And am trying to forget about this thing.

The only reason I started thinking about it again, When his sister, wanted me to post myself playing guitar, instead of asking me, David, can You Post Yourself Playing guitar, I'd love to hear You, or something like that.......Instead I got "CAN HE POST" Like she was asking my mother.......I think when people put it like that, They want You to do them a favor.......These people have always wanted people to "HUMOR" their son.....

So, thinking about this video, and him, I decided not to do it, Cause, if he see's it, All hell would probably break loose, They would bring him over to confront me, Cause maybe, it's not the kind of music he likes, or I can't know how to play guitar, or what Chord's are, He hasn't taught that to me yet.
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So, he understands what a big brother's roll is, but just doesn't know how tell the person..

Sorry if Your confused, that's just the best way I know how. to explain it.