Anna
I am so sorry that you're having such a tough time. I have had a lot of changes too and sometimes I can't bring myself to talk about the things that bother me most.
For myself I find that counselors cannot always make the difference. Sometimes it's something else that can help.
Seems like you are in a lot of pain---you can pm me anytime. You are being heard and you matter.

thank you.

Anna, change can be difficult. I have gone through major changes in my life over the past year. A lot of it is very triggering. I am now trying to make changes to improve my life and try to move forward. I hope things get better for you. While we can’t change the past, we can make changes to our future. Sending you well wishes and lots of support.

Anna, you're not used to your new situation. Hang in there, it's an adjustment and it will take time......Look, I was like you and after a while I got used to it. It takes time, it doesn't happen overnight.

Thank you. Yes, I know what you mean. I'm just worried about how long it might take me to adjust because in the meantime I am going downhill. I'm trying and I'm doing some things but overall I am declining.
I think they comment Secouya made is really good too about it being triggering. I've noticed that too. It brings up all kinds of things from the past and old and bad coping mechanisms surface to try to cope.
I am so sick of my therapist. No over sight. She starts falling asleep in the middle of my appointments. I have confronted her about it. She denies it. I really resent her. She's condescending and snobby too. Dr. is the same. I really don't have it in me to look elsewhere now.
I think I"m going to go have breakfast now and then rest today and try not to think about anything for awhile.
thank you again. i appreciate the connections i have here.

Thank you for reaching out an sharing. It is so hard to deal with change. Good and bad change are hard to adjust to. Most change is usually for the better. I went through a class that taught about our critter brain and that even when we want to make change and know it will be better in the long run our critter brain gets scared of the change and can hold us back from truly accepting the change. Too often we get stuck where we are at and if though we are not happy with the circumstances; we are afraid of what will happen with the changes. You said you didn't want to share on the main feed. If you ever want to chat and reach out feel free to pm me. Over the past 3 years I have learned how to become more self-aware of what changes needed to made in my life. It was hard at first to adjust but overtime I saw the benefit of the changes. I will be praying for you. Hugs and God Bless

I don't know if anyone has mentioned this, but I find that many times, loss and change bring grief which can bring us to our knees with pain. However it's the anger, sadness and other emotions that often bring healing.
Here to listen anytime

I hope you are right. I seems a lot of times like I never get to the healing part. I'm stuck in the anger and pain and hurt. I hope something can shift for the better.

How are you doing this week? I have been praying for you. Hugs

I feel alone too. Survival is difficult for me when I am alone. I wanted to work by myself, and I don't know if I can handle the loneliness for 24/7 because I lose focus, get tired, unmotivated, etc. It seems like people do better when they are around others, and have friends or family that they like. I don't have kids and my parents are retired, so my cats keep me company. When I get angry and have a temper tantrum then my cats run and hide. I was never like that until I became single and alone. I took anger mgmt. and that made it worse then better, and I can't tell if it helped. I am not perfect. I am in therapy and talk to a therapist about your emptiness. Maybe they can suggest ways to cope and feel better.