I'm really really scared. She was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease in her liver and that part of her body is killing her. She's going to appointments with different doctors and she's doing what she can, we can hope she will get a new liver at some point but I don't know how to handle this stress and I am so so scared but I can't talk to her about it because she has enough to worry about already. I want to talk to my Dad but he's in rehab for relapsing on alcohol and can only call me when he can call at all. I can't call the facility to talk to him about this. As much as I want to tell my long distance boyfriend what's going on with me, there's nothing he can do right now and that will frustrate me even more. I am just so afraid. My Mom is taking care of me and my brother all on her own and my depression and anxiety has made me deathly fearful of school and work. I can't do anything to support myself if I lose her. I'm also scared because I was starting to get better. I was making a routine for myself at night and paying more attention to how I treat myself, and now I feel like this situation is trying to take that from me. I don't know what I can possibly do right now to feel any better. I can't sleep.... and I don't have a therapist right now.