Hi, I want you to know your not alone, I cried myself to sleep the past 3 nights because I know I have ruined my marriage. I've been married for four years and the 1st year was the greatest but then my depression struck me hard, my husband says he felt alone.recently after my very near death suicide attempt I realized I needed to make changes. The antidepressant I'm on I can tell its helping a bit but now I was to work on my marriage but my husband doesn't trust me. He has completely pulled away. I feel like its all my fault and at this point I just want it to work out.I don't have a supportive family and I don't have any friends in my area.

Hugs to the both of you.

You know...I truly believe that we're meant to go through hard times in our lives in order to learn from them. It makes us better people, stronger, wiser.

Aly, no one deserves that kind of verbal abuse.
I too had to deal with my ex's insecurities and sometimes chose not to do things in order for him not to feel insecure. That only harmed me. I'm the one who lost out on the many adventures I wanted to partake in. I lost out.

A marriage is a balance of two people who support and respect each other. Trust is very important.
I hope you both find peace and happiness.

My heart goes out to you. I don't know the circumstances, but a failing marriage is tough to deal with. It sounds as though you must still love your spouse. Is there any chance for counseling? Pray for God's guidance and that He intervenes in your marriage as only He can. We've all had those moments where we thought it was over. Just remember it ain't over until God says it's over. Keep praying until your victory is won. I pray your will and God's will are in line. If not, trust Him and take His will over yours. Wishing you all the best.

Im so sorry. It sounds like you are feeling very hurt and broken. message me if u need

I know how ya feel. I ruined my marriage because I’ve been depressed and distant and unaffectionate. Truth is that a real love will endure and transcend all of your issues and faults. My wife cut and had a long list off mental health issues. It took a heavy toll on me but I always was there to pick her up and love her the best I could. As well as our kids. I’ve fallen now, almost 3 yrs and she’s running away with our kids when I needed her the most. I feel betrayed and abandoned I would be happy if I died right now. But I keep going. For my boys for that snowflake in hell’s chance that she or god is just testing my resolve to become a better man, father and husband. You’re not alone. No one is when they look for help. Or talk to somebody. I’ve only just learned that. It was hard and still is. Be strong and keep going. You are not alone.