I really lucked out.  After my insurance dropped my old therapist, I could not really find a new one.  I called my university and they provide therapy and I will not have to pay for it!  I really lucked out.  We had one phone consult and even though I am an online student they say I can only do therapy by phone, but she was able to set it up for me to see her in person.  I know it sounds silly when I say it looks like the perfect therapist for me, but her office had a really great vibe, it made me feel hopeful. She was super professional and knowledgable, she understood me and my diagnosis and my situation to the core.  So hard for me to find.  I felt affirmed and supported and I feel like I have a strategy to solve the problems that I face.  I know it sounds silly when I say I feel like the stars aligned, but sometimes in life it works out that way.  I felt like I have hope for overcoming the dilemmas that I am facing, and I think really one of my biggest enemies is me.  It's easy to think that the crappy people in our lives are the ones causing us harm but at the end of the day I think it goes deeper than that.  I feel very lucky and I had a much better day today. After the therapy session I was able to complete all the responsibilities on my list, when typicallly if I sink into depression I don't complete things. So much better than the one that was laughing all the way through the session, didn't believe how I felt, and couldn't remember appointments.  I feel thankful.