You are not worthless. A few months ago I was pretty much forced due to finances to move from Oregon to Nebraska to live in a house with my stepmom who I hadn't seen in 24 years. I moved in with my son and didn't know the was suffering from Bi Polar 1 Disorder. It's a nightmare. Thank God today on Christmas she is out of town and my son and I get to have some peace of mind. She throws fits , turns blenders on throws thing's , screams and yells for no reason at all.
I just got a job so I will be saving to move out because she is literally making me physically ill.
I know it's horrible to be alone especially on this day. That's why I'm writing to you because I care. My daughters stepmom's father is in the hospital today on Christmas in an induced coma due to complications from COVID. He's not going to make it.
These are extremely hard times in this wort right now. Your'e not alone god sees you and I know He sees me. I'm reaching out to you .

You're not alone. The Christmas cards I got were from my mechanic, my doctor, the pharmacy near me, the dentist, etc., anyone who I pay money to sent me a card. Other than that, only my sister did also. So if it wasn't for the people I pay or my sister, I wouldn't have gotten any cards either.
Some people are able to maintain friendships over many years. I wonder what we did wrong? Recently, a woman I was friends with for 25 years decided to end the friendship. So that's out the window too.
You are entitled to happiness. Whenever I feel like you do, I get out, take a walk in a park or something, or go and treat myself to something. Go and do something pleasant for yourself, even if no one else does. You deserve it!!

thank you both for writing. I'm sorry for the hard times you are going through too. thanks for saying i'm not worthless. yes, i got christmas cards from a couple of businesses too. not worth too much. i put them on the mantel. at least it's something to look at. holidays really shine a light on our relationships or lack thereof. i'm sorry maria that you lost a friend of 25 years for no good reason. that really suck. i know, i sometimes wonder how people maintain long term friendships. i've tried to hold on to people who I thought were friends but they always drift off. yea, i'm just going to cook myself some nice food today and rest. but deep down there is this big hole inside me that i can't ignore. it really does hurt to be alone. thanks for writing to me. that helps.

You are not worthless gorgeous. Don’t think that way. You are a lovely girl. Wish I could be close to you and hug you and keep you in my arms.

hugs I would have sent a card....I did send one to someone who asked for my address and gave me theirs.....we exchanged cards for first time this year.....

I gifted much more money wise than I was given.....I did get a nice gift from my girlfriend....she gave me a smoker I was wanting but did not have money to buy.....so she bought it for me.....I have to say we both spent a bit on each other....I gave her a flippity fish toy for cats as she is cat lover who is allergic to cats but will have friends bring them by to visit with her....now she has a toy to play with them with....then I got her a Cat covered insulated metal glass for drinking with a flip straw to it....that was pretty expensive but I know she will love it when it gets here....I gave her some masks for covid that has the St. Louis Blues logo's on them.....and I got her a free quilt rack and got her an outdoor antenna for her house to hook up TV.....we both do not pay for cable or satellite TV so we have Amish TV....Antennas....LOL

I gave my sister's diamond earrings that were from my Nana's wedding set that I inherited as I decided to have my ear pierced with the half carrot stone and gave them matching smaller stones from that ring....then I sold the gold of ring and another ring that was gold too and it paid for their earrings to be made....so no money spent but they got diamonds from the wedding set of our Nana.....

hope 2021 is a good year as 2020 was not the best.....

Hi Anna, the Christmas holiday was tough for me as well. It's the first time I've ever spent it alone. I often find myself dwelling on happier times and it serves to be very counter-productive but often unavoidable human nature. Loneliness can be a constant disease that slowly eats away the strength of the heart, body, and soul. I feel elements of it every day as do you. You're definitely not alone.

Merry Christmas to you too! I hope this New Year is better for you. I was alone yesterday, too.
I was suppose to go out to my Mom's, but felt sick. I cancelled. I am in isolation waiting to be tested for coneavirsus Monday. Just to play it safe.
I am sorry your friends and family have not reciprocated towards you.
You are not alone and worthless.

thank you all for writing and telling me your stories. Vegas guy, i like your defn/ of loneliness. "a constant disease that slowly eats away the strength of the heart, body and soul." so well put, so true.
bill, you sure are generous. your girlfriend is lucky to have you.
Good luck with your test bluebird. thank you all for the kind words.

I am sure you are a great person.hang n there,wish you the best