Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I just had the worst fight with my bf. He's a liar and took some of my meds and thinks he can just go thru my things. He tried to hide the one phone from me so I can't talk to anyone.He blames me for everything. Things got physical and I lost control and kept hitting him. Somehow I landed on the bed now I think I broke a finger. I know none of this makes sense to anyone but I just have to try to explain how devestated I feel. My therapist talked to me today about my shoplifting then was saying how I shouldn't be with my bf. Last week my dr said something and then we will find out when he kills you. I so badly want to take a ton of klonopin that I just got filled today. I want to drink so badly. I want to run away and never see anyone again. I am such a failure and all I do is scream and fight. God help me thru this. I am dying inside.
You are doing the right thing. Praying. Keep praying He will see you through and give you strength.
I hope this helped even a little bit.
I finally had to say, I had a good life before him, I can have a good life after him. I know how it feels to die inside. I've done it a thousand times. But I do smile. You have to take it one day at a time.
Ask yourself, can I live like this forever? If the answer is no, then don't. Change, loose him and refind your sanity. Talk to your family. They do typically help. But it sounds like you are in a destructive relationship, he won't change it so you must.
I hope you find yourself again. Best of luck.
Please try and talk to us.
Maybe some space from your BF would be a good thing for you?