Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Alliegator 03/01/2008

I'm currently sitting in my common room at my dorm with my friends. I am able to detach myself from the situation I am in and I realize how I have so much pain and anguish inside me but I use the outside world to distract myself from it. I don't know how to deal with any of it. I'm pretty sure I just ignore my problems. I go to therapy and I acknowledge my issues and try to work on them but still somehow nothing ever gets fixed. I don't really know what is going on with me. I feel like I am going crazy. I get in these states where I feel like I have dissociated and I'm looking down on myself and I don't have any control over my body. I don't really know how to explain it. I feel that I disconnect with reality too often. I don't know what to do.
I fear I am losing my sanity

deleted_user 03/01/2008

i wish i had an answer but i go through the same thing. i guess what i am trying to say is you are not alone. try to take stength in that.
(((HUGS)))

deleted_user 03/01/2008

I think you mean derealization.

Is there a way you can get away from you school for the weekend and go home or to a hotel room to just think to yourself?

I always liked to think it was the sane people we should be worried about anyway :) I know I am!

deleted_user 03/01/2008

Not to be nosey, but are you on any kind of medication? Zoloft and wellbutrin seem to helping a little bit for me but I still disassociate myself. I get labeled a snob, stuckup or just weird. I can't help it, we can't help it. It's weird when you're kind of just watching you and your life play out like some boring (and sometimes tragic) movie, but that's how it sometimes goes. I can be in a room full of people that are laughing and having fun..and there I sit watching them blankly. Taking some of it in and sometimes just hearing a bunch of babbling (like the adults on the Peanuts show). Surrounded by friends and loved ones and still so alone, so lonely inside. Alone with all the thoughts we can't turn off. I wish I could help, maybe someone can help us all.

deleted_user 03/01/2008

Hi Hun, sorry you're feeling bad. You sound like you have anxiety. I have felt the same way too, in a whole room of people and having absolutely no connection--staring blankly. For me, it's anxiety, a way to protect myself and keep myself safe. You're not insane, you sound very well aware of what you're feeling. Meds helped me a lot. I hope that you can find what works for you, but stay strong. hugs xx

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