I am tad down on myself today. It's depression but not...you know major depression. I am not heading to the forest with a rope or anything.
Its career and life style related. First off, I think I am a good graphic designer. I have been using graphics apps since 1995. Adobe Photoshop since V3.0. With no layers. So I know how to use the Adobe apps. I am current to CC 2020.
I am applying for even these jobs that requre 1 year experience. Hell, I just want health insurance..they can pay me what the fuck ever. As long as my commute does not put me at a disavantage. Or if its a remote job, even better.
So having zero, zilth, nada, bubkis feedback in that areana. Fine. I don't have a girlfriend. Ok theres that. Fine. So at least I figure I can get a job that I totally don't despise right? WTF? No repsonses. I have been fucking with the graphics for over 20 years. Awesome photo editing, good, solid and mature design techquiques. I don't use the silly, automated filters on photoshop. I create drop shadows manually with seperate layers.
Anyhoo. Just frustrated. Still applying and my resume mysterously ends up in the black hole. WTF? I am doing nation wide remote job searches. Having scammers try and get my bank account info. So adding these scammers to the mix, is like rubbing salt into my wounds.
Ah well. I am on dating websites. Am always let down. Nothing. Maybe no one wants me or something. Maybe I suck or something .
I had these photo websites for over 20 fucking years, not one email....no interest. Do I suck so bad? meh Just venting.
In the spirit of Christmas, what is the worst gift you have ever received?mine is this:I am a Christian. My two younger sisters are not. My youngest sister Lynn for my birthday two years ago bought me a lovely cross necklace with a nativity stone inside which I live and get so many compliments on and a book of devotions. I thought it was very thoughtful. Then a year later she randomly surprised...
Recently i have started seeing a counselor and going to therapy and it has been such an immense about of how for me. Although i'm not perfect and back to the way I was there is improvement that I never thought i'd see; but my one problem is that although i'm growing and becoming more positive my home remains unchanged. It's very difficult to be positive and grow in a home that is negative and...