glad u feel comfortable writing it out here. very cold here in michigan, happy you are able to enjoy the outdoors. nature does help! im struggling lately with loving a guy who doesnt share the same feelings. my mom use to tell me to "be kind to yourself" (i.e. dont wait for other people to bring you joy). Spring will be here in no time, hang in there (hug)

I’m emotionally aching too. Life is hard. My condition is chronic as a result of an abusive marriage and me having to face divorce on my own as a result of my spouse’s infidelity… and direct relief from oppression is not been granted. It’s hard to accept being on the short end of the stick.

Thank you both for the kind words. I’d love to message you to talk if want.

Good morning Restful! I'm sorry about your friend. About 5 years ago, my best friend started hanging out with another girl, a lot. They had drinking in common. The girl turned out to be a whack job and ended up ripping my best friend off for $400 and she never heard from her again. Don't forget, the friendship is new so it's more exciting. I hope your friend comes around more often. I'm glad that you did some gardening and got out in nature. That is very important and a good self-help tactic. Cheer up! We are here for you and I, too, and glad that you feel comfortable writing here.

GreenEyes727 thank you so much for your kind reply. You’re right, the friendship is still new, so who knows what will happen. I feel like I’m the one who was there through some really hard times, so I hope that’s not something that’s forgotten. Right now I feel kind of just discarded.

Good for you getting out in nature

Why don't you invite your friend to do something in the next few days

Maybe get out for a walk or for a meal?

Well it’s a good idea but unfortunately I’m friends with this person online and they live a thousand miles away so it’s impossible to actually get together and do something.

Sometimes other human beings disappoint us. This happened to me several times last year. Thought they were friends but found out they actually wanted something for me and for me to promote them in various ways. I was also mad at myself or not recognizing it quickly with one woman. Because I wanted her to be better than she was and I was slow to act. The next one also disappointed me but I spoke up quickly and said I can't promote you for ethical reasons due to our careers. She has now gone with the wind. I just met someone new who seems to be a lovely person. Has similar medical issues to me. We were supposed to meet today but she canceled. I am okay with staying home today but now the slight depression starts. Now it is like a big let-down feeling. I need to get busy doing something to help my mood lift.

Hasty_05 thank you for your response. I’m glad I’m not alone, but I’m sorry to hear that you went through this also. It’s so hard to get my kind off of it, no matter what I do.

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling down restful. I definitely can relate to what you're saying.
I've had that happen a few times too. Feeling abandoned and discarded is the worst.

Like the others said maybe she's just distracted right now by newness of this other friend and will come around soon.
Or since you're more online friends you can plan something together online, like a live chat or FaceTime.

I'm glad you were able to get outside. Breaking that cycle of negative thoughts is hard.

I'm here a lot. If you want to chat.