All those thoughts in your head are NEGATIVE thoughts. Get rid of them! You do have a lot going for you, more than you think. focus on the positive. In the past, I used to dwell on the negative so very much that someone would have to point out the positives I had in my life, then it was like a light bulb went on in my head for me to realize it!
As for your ex, yes she rebounded but no one knows what was going on inside her head either. She was probably depressed about the breakup, but you don't know.
And look at it this way too---it could be much, much worse. You could be struggling, no job, no car, and living in a bad neighborhood.
Maybe if you focus on the positives, you'll feel better. Give it a try!

Depression is an illness. You probably need treatment to lessen the depression. And be able to enjoy life again. Talk to your doctor. He may be able to give you medication. A psychiatrist can give you medication and help you find a therapist if needed. Good luck.

If you have any childhood abandonment wounds - a parent who worked too much, alcohol drug addictions, emotionally unavailable, toxic home life, inconsistent support - you might suffer from abandonment wounds.

I did. I too had everything like you - but I always felt empty inside. When I walked out the door, I shoved down my insecurities, needs, and became the person I thought everyone else wanted me to be.

In my first significant relationship, I also put myself last and put his needs first. It worked great for him, but inside not for me. Then he abandoned and betrayed me...and I thought...wait...how can he do this to me? I literally put myself aside for you???

So I would definitely reevaluate how have you learned to "abandon" yourself?

Saying yes when you really meant no? Doing things to make other "happy." Following society's checklist of success and happiness, but in the end achieving it all...and feeling empty.

You have to start making a conscious effort to make each choice on what YOU WANT. Despite how off the beaten path it is. Maybe you require a period of self-discovery?

The guidance of a counselor or mental health professional can greatly assist you with this. Depression is tough, I took experience it on and off. But more so lately, when I listen to what I truly want to do, and put my needs and wants first - it really helps it stay in check.

Sending you light and love!

I can relate and it seems like I have a chemical imbalance. No one has been helpful with the therapy route. I have been trying to push aside the negative feelings...it definitely takes effort. Hang in there - things will get better. And its great to be able to get feedback here from others.

I tend to feel lonely at night because I'm all alone with no distractions. When I start feeling lonely I try to focus on all the blessings I have, and that I'm not truly alone: I have good friends, support system, and people I can contact if I feel sad. I also go to counseling and enjoy talking to people like you that need some encouragement. Take delight in the small things if you can. Hugs to you.